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I can't take it anymore. I need somewhere to just tell people about it all. 8th grade is turning out to be much more stressful than I thought it would be. I wasn't doing so good with my grades at the beginning of the year. I couldn't help it, I was scared of how my parents my react if I showed them, so I foraged a signature... crying I did this more and more, and although all my friends at school do the same thing and feel no guilt what-so-ever, I just can't stand it. That wasn't so bad, but as I knew, it wouldn't stop there. I got a few homework slips, 4 so far, foraged a signature on 3, showed my parents one. Then 3 Equals a demerit, I signed that too..... crying Then we got a quick check up sheet with our grades, it had to be signed by our parents, I saw that I wasn't doing so well and, you guessed it, I signed that too. Now I'm just in a heap of trouble. I don't want my parents to know about anything, but eventually they're going to find out. I'm improving my grades, so that's not so bad, but they haven't gone up YET, so they're still not so good. But now the king of all problems is occurring, my parents want to see my grades..... I'm stressing out, I can't sleep, I'm breaking out in rashes, crying when I'm alone, and I'm just plain scared. cry Now I'm having trouble eating too, I just don't know what to do!!! Eventually they'll find out, the school will find out, I'll get a detention or two, I just can't keep it up! I want help, but I don't know anyone I could tell who wouldn't get me in trouble! That's why I'm posting this, just to let some people know, and vent some of this terrifying fear, in what will be the scariest days of my life. I wish it would stop..... I can't keep this up for much longer, being in school is endangering my health.... crying

I can't even eat. I feel sick. I have so many questions.... What will happen to me? How will my parents react? Will the school find out? What will the school do to me? It's super scary, but I feel a confession coming on..... if only I could say it..... It's hard, but I don't think I'm going to try to hide it as much at home. I'd much rather my parents find out first than the school tell them or give them enough evidence, but I have to do so before my parents call the school, which could happen at any time. I they do that, I'll probably get called down to the office or something right in the middle of school eek I've never had to go through that! I'm not a bad person!!! I just wish I had never even started this..... And something just hit me, how would my friends react? I doubt they'd do much, but what would they say?

EDIT: It's funny, looking back at this now, before I go into highschool. I can still remember how scared I was! Luckily my mom accidentally printed this whole entry on a document, and I gave it all away before I even got to confess! I felt stupid, but I was happy to know that it would soon be over with. I just wish I could go back in time and give myself a big hug and tell myself everything would be okay! ^_^

I hope nothing like this happens at Calvert. ._.