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Dec. 31, 2015, Jordan gets upset at Harrison for calling him Miller; read from bottom of post upward
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime you're my friend, I don't expect more out of it, but it's nice to sleep near you even if it's not directly next to you
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'm happy you're here, because I like to be near you and because you're around and I can do stuff to help you out.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot s**t in general
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime which s**t? The name s**t or s**t in general?
Harrison @OfficerStabALot how do u feel about s**t?
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Ah. I see.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot it wuz there as a "we are not ********" formality not as a I dont know or like the guy ward
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime just calling me by my last name's pretty ******** cold and unfriendly, that's why I got upset
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime yeah, that's separate, the bishop also prefers it but we're the ones who have to be nearby for that so if it doesn't happen it doesn't
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't mind as long as it's a friend crashing here instead of some kind of free hotel bullshit, that's all
Harrison @OfficerStabALot regardin his relationship wit the bishop and my relationship wit u
Harrison @OfficerStabALot ur still a friend. Im still sore about relationship s**t. the boss prefers it when we sleep at ur place but him and me are seperate
its not anything, s**t. we needed a place to stay and I figured u would b cool wit it
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't care what people think about it, what I care about is what it is to you
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You don't need to overdo it.
[/public Twitter feed context] William Hughes @Noaginger @OfficerStabALot Oh right aye.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot @Noaginger in a platonic generous not charging us rent kind of way
William Hughes @Noaginger @OfficerStabALot How generous.
William Hughes @Noaginger @OfficerStabALot ...what
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Yeah, okay.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot did I say generous
Harrison @OfficerStabALot becuz hes a generous and handsome bloke
Harrison @OfficerStabALot sorry s**t I meant my good friend jordan is gracously allowing me to stay in our best pals shared room [public Twitter feed context]
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime That hurt, man.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Not even on first name terms. Jesus.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot uh lets not b hasty
Harrison @OfficerStabALot course ur still a friend I didnt sign a no friendship contract by callin u miller
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime if I'm a ******** hotel, you can pay for the service
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Ah. Communication errors again. Well, if we're not even friends, I don't see why you're interested in staying here
Harrison @OfficerStabALot well ya our room wuz busted up??
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime So it's just that you decided that my room would make a good hotel room?
Harrison @OfficerStabALot I think ur confusin me wit rep again. u and rep sleep next 2 each other
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Thanks for the clarification. No, I mean that I thought you were considering me a friend in some way, since you came to stay here
Harrison @OfficerStabALot u want me to clarify more explicit that u and rep are ******** but not necesarily 2gether and me and u arent ******** or together
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime you'll sleep next to me but you won't even use my first name?
Harrison @OfficerStabALot what do u mean what the hell
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime What the hell man
[/public Twitter feed context] Harrison @OfficerStabALot @TrexTrembles ya we r still crashing wit miller
Oliver Keeley @TrexTrembles @Noaginger Okay, I'll just drop some stuff off... Are you guys still all in Jordan's room? It won't be weird if I leave stuff? [public Twitter feed context]
Dec. 31, 2015, Jordan and Horace talk briefly about the name thing; read from bottom of post upward
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Generally not.
Horace @nokoni_island Holding grudges and stuff never really works out.
Horace @nokoni_island I hope he does though.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Harrison hasn't forgiven me and might not ever, but as long as we can manage a friendship that'll be all right
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime That's what I thought and why I got angry
Horace @nokoni_island I always thought Rep was harder to like 'win over', but I guess it's Harrison.
Horace @nokoni_island That's... I'm not sure why he would feel the need to announce that. And using last names when he hasn't used 'em before seems rly cold.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Says he meant the name thing as signal to the general population that we're not together
Horace @nokoni_island Ugh communication.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Thanks man. Communication error, mostly
Horace @nokoni_island Alright. gl
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Nah. We're talking about it
Horace @nokoni_island I'm not allowed to kick Harrison, am I?
Posted: Tue Jan 12, 2016 6:53 pm
January 12, 2015, Jordan and Harrison talk about what love means; read from bottom of post upward
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime If we couldn't all be happy, I wanted it for you guys. I didn't understand what you needed from me.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot and I guess u wuz just doing whatever u could to make me and rep happy even at cost 2 urself
Harrison @OfficerStabALot that is a pretty good summary yeah
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime And I guess that's why it bugged you so much, the times I needed space.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I left, believing it was the only thing I could do because I loved you, when I was actually doing the exact thing that would convince you I didn't. Well, s**t.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot I mean I guess I understand and it makes a lot of sense but
Harrison @OfficerStabALot yeah, s**t
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I think I understand better. Thank you for that
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime that helps clear up why you asked me how I could say it casually, anyway
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime maybe so.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot and u wanted us to b happy even if it wuz without u
Harrison @OfficerStabALot I wanted us 2 b together even if things were s**t
Harrison @OfficerStabALot I think were sayin 2 different things and maybe thats why it all happnd in the first place
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime but yeah. That's a good definition
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime maybe what I mean by happy isn't what you mean by happy.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I feel like we're trying to say similar things in words that are completely different
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I see what you mean
Harrison @OfficerStabALot I dunno like commitment. its partners u can depend on both ways. and I am happy. but its bigger than that. even if everythin was s**t and the both of us would never b able to b happy again, wed still b together. its like that I guess
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It's not something that I can just stop.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I felt like it'd be dishonest to any other partners, though, if I went with someone else still feeling like I did.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't know why I didn't move on. It would probably be the logical thing to do.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime How would you define love, if not by wanting someone else's happiness and well-being?
Harrison @OfficerStabALot but maybe its just an ability reps got
Harrison @OfficerStabALot when it all happened I didnt understand y u didnt move on becuz thats sure as ******** wat I would have done
Harrison @OfficerStabALot look I know, maybe u feel like it wuz a mistake what happened back then. and that u havent been with nobody else.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot s**t we’d never get anywhere if that was my ******** life goal. I’m not here to appease his surly a**
Harrison @OfficerStabALot love isnt just well wishes s**t. I want u 2 b happy 2. I want nick 2 b happy. theres a lot of folks I dont want their lives to go down in flames. but I wouldnt describe rep as just “some guy I want 2 b happy"
Harrison @OfficerStabALot ur a gloomy a** ******** @OfficerStabALot how is I wanted to say I love u in case I could never say it again no pressure
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Requires no reply or action.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime No, not particularly. I just wanted to let you know where I stand. No ulterior motive or pressure, just information.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot ur planning somethin right? or u want something?
Harrison @OfficerStabALot what r u talkin about? whats gotten into u? …what r u up to?
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime but I say it casual because if you don't want to hear it from me and that's the last time I get to say it, it hurts less like that
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Looking at it, that doesn't sound like much, but that doesn't really cover how strong the feelings are
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Means I care a lot about you and want you to be happy, and if I can help make that happen I want to. Means that I want to be around you because you make me happy, even when s**t's complicated.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot I mean u cant say that s**t all casual like that I mean what does that even mean 2 u
Harrison @OfficerStabALot s**t Ive had my twitter off I didnt see ur message. thats alright man. talkin about feelins is complicatd
[later]
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Anyway, going out for a supply run. Is there anything you want me to pick up?
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Won't say it again unless you ask me to, but: I love you.
January 31, 2016, Jordan and Harrison argue, Rep and Harrison talk, text log
Prox: what would Harrison do if Jordan got irritable about being sexiled and said "your room's fixed, you could go there instead of kicking me out of mine" Bane: Omg sexiled Prox: idr where I heard that but it's a good word Toshi: He’d be like uh yeah but your room’s right here… Toshi: and it’s kind of inconvenient Toshi: anyway just go down to the cafeteria and make yourself a slushie or something Bane: Rep'd be like "coffee" Prox: he'd put up with that for a while but eventually put his foot down, I think Bane: Distantly Toshi: Harrison: Yeah a coffee. Prox: he's been doormat but less so Toshi: it’d turn to incredulity like Toshi: What, you want us to like, walk Toshi: all the way down there Toshi: I mean, it’s a really long hallway Jordan Toshi: you picked really far Bane: Rep: And with a boner. Toshi: you did this to yourself Bane: Rep: Asking a guy to walk with a hard on. Bane: Rep: I mean I'm no getting involved but from a /humane/ standpoint. Prox: Jordan: *flat stare* Hey, you're welcome to use the bedroom, but I'm not feeling like taking a walk Toshi: Harrison: I mean….I guess we could….go ahead and move out -looks back at Rep- Bane: Rep: Or he could watch. Toshi: Harrison: He’s not ******** watching. Bane: Rep: Its no like its anything /new/. Have you put on weight? Prox: Jordan: Oh, if that's all, I've got a book, I won't be watching. Bane: Rep: That's cold. A book more interesting than me. Toshi: Harrison: My a** is completely ******** perfect, you’re the one on the a million carb sugar diet. Bane: Rep: ...did you just call me fat. Bane: Rep: I don't think Jordan /needs to leave/ Bane: Rep: I don't think there's ANY REASON FOR HIM TO Prox: Jordan: I'm respecting his objection to me watching. I'm just not getting kicked out of my own damn room, there's been enough of that. Toshi: Harrison: Maybe we don’t need to ******** at all! Bane: Rep: Not if you think I'm ******** fat. Bane: Rep: Why don't you go find a skinny wee baseball player. Toshi: Harrison: Fine, okay, I got the vote, I’ll leave. Bane: Rep: I don't know why you even /want/ to stay in here Jordan. Maybe I should go get a coffee, I don't even drink coffee. Toshi: Harrison: You guys can both enjoy your weight-watching literature. Bane: Rep: No you can't leave as well! Bane: Rep: You are just trying to upstage me. Bane: Rep: You always do this. Toshi: Harrison: I said it first, ********/> Bane: Rep: Don't you mean FATHEAD Toshi: Harrison: No, I would have said Fatass. Bane: Rep: Oh. My god. Bane: Rep: You did not just go there. Prox: Jordan: neutral You did bring up weight first, man. *to Rep* Toshi: Harrison: GOING. Bane: Rep: Well I see how it is. Bane: Rep: I'll just stay here I guess and sit on my goddamn fat a**. Toshi: Harrison: HAVE FUN Bane: Rep: And are you honestly siding with the guy who just told you to get lost? Prox: Jordan: *sighs and goes to make coffee. With his own coffeemaker in the room* Bane: Rep: I'll have fun stuffing my face with my ******** THOUSAND CALORIE DIET. Prox: Jordan: No. I'm not actually siding with anyone here, because you're both being assholes about it. Toshi: Harrison: Well it’s HIS ROOM AIN’T IT Bane: Rep: .....yes? Prox: Jordan: Yeah, it is. Toshi: Harrison: I’m going to my room and I’m going to stay there, stay wherever the ******** you want. Bane: Rep: sad Prox: Jordan: I see. If you can't use my room however you like and kick me out if you feel like it, suddenly it's not so great. Toshi: Harrison: That was always the arrangement, yeah. Bane: Rep: :/ Prox: Jordan: I don't like being used. See ya, then. Toshi: Harrison: -gripping the door hard for a moment, but leaving- Prox: Jordan: *throws his book across the room hard after Harrison leaves* Bane: Rep: *immediately tense and anxious and freezes up* :l Prox: Jordan: You can go ahead if you want. Wouldn't want him to think you were taking my side. Bane: Rep: I don't want /you/ to think I'm not taking yours either. Bane: Rep: I don't even know what just happened. Prox: Jordan: *freezes briefly, tense all over* If he's just. Using me for my stuff, my room, whatever. I don't want to be used. Bane: Rep:..aye. Bane: Rep: I don't know how to fix any of it. Prox: Jordan: I won't be just ... stepped on. He has to know that. Sorry you had to get in the middle of it. Bane: Rep: Its fine. Bane: Rep: I probably didn't help. Prox: Jordan: I know he doesn't believe me or trust me. ... It was going to happen sooner or later. Bane: Rep: I think its about more than believing. Bane: Rep: I think its like, both of you want very different things and have very different values like. Its like Bane: Rep: Trying to plug a speaker into a USB port, its no going to work with an aux cable. Bane: Rep: And like.. you try and he doesnt think its like...trying in the right places. Prox: Jordan: I don't know if I can be what he would need. I don't know if I can fix it. Bane: Rep: Its all ******** up. Prox: Jordan: I just don't want him to cut himself off from me completely. Bane: Rep: I think like. Wanting the opposite like is wanting this to happen over and over. Bane: Rep: Cause he like. He's no going to tolerate like little by little efforts like. Prox: Jordan: If he won't take small gestures or large efforts, then I guess I'm just ********, huh? Bane: Rep: I think he feels he already gave and was going to give like, all that effort in one go for ever and got stung and it was all a mistake but getting him to switch that back on again I don't know. Bane: Rep: I don't know, I don't know why he works the way he does he's just very...absolute. Bane: Rep: Its like binary he's a lot of ones and zeros Bane: Rep: And you can't do increments Prox: Jordan: *swallows hard* I've done what I can to show him and tell him how I feel. It's ... on him, if he wants me in his life. I can't make that decision. Prox: Jordan: I won't let him use me for it. Bane: Rep: And you shouldnae let anybody use you. That's a good stand to take. Bane: Rep: I just don't want to go back to like.. Bane: Rep: I just feel like I'm making things harder for both of you. Prox: Jordan: If you have to choose, I know what it'll be. If you don't ... well, you know I still want you around, when you want to be around. Bane: Rep: I don't know how it'll go but I don't want to go back to that ******** awful sad ******** stalemate. Bane: Rep: But I can't hurt him either or I'll lose him forever too. Bane: Rep: And then he'd be alone and he was alone before and like you are a clever ********, you are savvy. He isnae, he'd be dead. Prox: Jordan: I don't believe you could lose him. But I don't want you to have to hurt him either. Bane: Rep: He's useless without me watching his dumb blonde a**. Bane: Rep: I refuse to go back to you just ******** avoiding me though no matter what happens. Bane: Rep: This is a small goddamn island. Prox: Jordan: If it's a choice, I want you to choose him, because you two assholes are useless without each other. So, you know, if you gotta choose, don't feel bad about it. Prox: Jordan: I'm ... not going to avoid you. Bane: Rep: If anything happened to him I'd end up dead and vice versa and then I wouldn't be able to harass you at all. Like, even from a battle point of view. Prox: Jordan: I know. Bane: Rep: I've known you too ******** long at this point to go back to the awkward s**t from before. Bane: Rep: But I guess like if he doesn't like...let me like.. :/ keep sleeping with you. I'll be ******** gutted about it obviously, but you'll like. Bane: Rep: You'll need to stand up to /me/. Bane: Rep: If I like...get in your way like. Bane: Rep: Jealous. And s**t. Prox: Jordan: *rubs his face* I'll keep you from doing anything awful to me. Bane: Rep: /long sigh - That's a tall ******** order is what. Bane: Rep: I'd better go after him. I'm no used to HIM being the sulky one. Prox: Jordan: Yeah. Go ahead. Just - Prox: Jordan: *crosses the room to kiss Rep, once, lightly* Okay, go ahead. Bane: Rep: -gives Jordan a CRUSHING HUG - Right. Wish me ******** luck. The last time he went off in a mood I think he killed a whole ******** slew of famine bugs. I hope the trainees are ok. Toshi: Harrison: -did go to his room which has been finished for months but did not jack off because he is too upset for it and just lies on the bed with his arm over his face instead- Prox: Jordan: Good luck. *manages half a smile, goes back to his own bedroom once Rep leaves*
Bane: Rep: /just goes to Harrisons room and sits leaning against the door like some sad uninvited vampire Toshi: Harrison: -lifting up his elbow to look over at the faint noises outside the door- Who is it? Bane: Rep: /doesn't say anything >:l Toshi: Harrison: -putting the elbow back- whatever. Toshi: Harrison: -puffing out a breath and then momentuming himself off the bed to go open the door- -looking at Rep- …. Bane: Rep: /just ignores him Toshi: Harrison: Yeah, I figured. Why the ******** would Jordan show up. -going back to the bed and leaving the door open- Bane: Rep: Sorry to be such a goddamn dissapointment I guess. Toshi: Harrison: -back to his covering his eyes position- I’m not disappointed with you. Bane: Rep: /snorts Bane: Rep: You were a right d**k back there. Toshi: Harrison: Yeah, well. It’s not like he cares. Bane: Rep: You know that's not ******** true. Bane: Rep: You know he's still got feelings which can get hurt when you are bristly and mean. Toshi: Harrison: Well, he probably cared about you moving out. Or…whatever you’re doing. Toshi: Harrison: Not liking it’s not the same as it ******** mattering. Bane: Rep: ..I don't like that phrase. Bane: Rep: I think not liking something is a good ******** hint that some part of it matters. Toshi: Harrison: He doesn’t like there to be *general unpleasantness* he doesn’t like the room to not have *happy feelings* in it. It doesn’t matter who or what they’re attached to or why. Toshi: Harrison: It’s just all a big ******** he was hoping would get smoothed over or go away. Bane: Rep: He's always dealt with emotions that way though. He's like, calm and composed and thats like, how he is. Ripples and s**t he doesn't really understand them and they ruffle him. But he's like.. he's no equipped with a book to navigate them. There's no manual. Bane: Rep: So all he can do is avoid or hope genuinely they sort or go away. He's no an emotion fixer, he's no got the wrenches and s**t to do the job. But that doesnae mean he disnae want to. Bane: Rep: You make it sound cruel or callous when its just like asking him to do something he's no built to do. Toshi: Harrison: It’s the *why*. It’s the why he wants to fix s**t. Not whether or not he can fix it. Bane: Rep: He could have argued that you didnae dig hard for the reasons for why he like, ran away afraid because you didnae care, that your reasons were ******** up too. Bane: Rep: You aren't a good digger. Bane: Rep: You just go whelp thats buried I guess its gone for ever and I will never know why. Bane: Rep: I'll just go be ******** mad about it. Bane: Rep: So it just ends up a ******** thing that buried itself and you can't dig it out and thats it. Toshi: Harrison: It’s not a ******** mystery. It’s not like he’s been a foggy crystal ball of motivations. Bane: Rep: Evidently he ******** was or you wouldn't have been so ******** blindsided by it. Bane: Rep: And your like, reasons you've attributed to him are all too simple and too easy. Bane: Rep: But I don't know. I don't know s**t. Bane: Rep: Maybe I'm just wrong. Toshi: Harrison: You’re ******** him because you don’t want him to be sad. Great. Fine. And he’s ******** you because he doesn’t want either of you to be sad. So, maybe you guys always understood that, and I didn’t. And if it’s what you want to do now, fine. Bane: Rep: You were the one who told me I could. Toshi: Harrison: He swears up and down that he didn’t break up with me over you. That it was its own s**t. That I was integral to the fight where he threw the ring at you. But you know what, that’s a ******** lie. He broke up with me because he broke up with you. And then he wanted to get back together because you were messaging him and wanting sex. Bane: Rep: I think he just mistook like, my attitude as like, reflective of the way the wind was blowing. Bane: Rep: I think he does that a lot when he can't understand you. Bane: Rep: And maybe sometimes I'd manipulate that. Bane: Rep: Maybe without even realising it. Toshi: Harrison: And I know it was ******** selfish, but I didn’t want it. I didn’t want the hassle and the heartache every time he asked me if I wanted to go out and see each other just because he thought he couldn’t get to fourth base with you if I wasn’t on board. So I was like, you know, I’m not a door you need to walk through to get to Rep. And he was like, great, and then…you know, that was it. That was all he cared about, so… I mean. I know he’s been civil. And trying. But as far as all that was concerned…I don’t know. Toshi: Harrison: I know I haven’t been civil back, and if I’d been sweet-talking him I’m sure he would have returned the favor. But I just don’t ******** feel like it. Bane: Rep: So you like, letting me sleep with him was just like. A malicious like, making a point thing. Bane: Rep: Like have this, its all you want. Bane: Rep: Dunno how I feel about that. Toshi: Harrison: Sorry. …It was just a shitty, coward thing to do. I didn’t want to be hurt by it anymore. So I… I dunno. Bane: Rep: So you just tested your theory. And I guess you felt really vindicated when he slept with me. I thought it meant you were being grouchy but like, that maybe there'd be progress we could make. I didn't think I was just like, being allowed to ******** s**t up because you were mad at him. Bane: Rep: But its my fault anyway I guess. I shouldn't have started anything. Toshi: Harrison: You are an a*****e for sexting him, yeah. And he’s an a*****e for not caring if you were in a relationship or if it was just ********. He didn’t have to prove me right either. If he hadn’t, yeah. Maybe it would have been progress towards getting everything back together. But it’s all just shitty instead. Bane: Rep: I flirt with everybody. Bane: Rep: I don't know. Toshi: Harrison: -rolling over to his side on the bed- You knew he was in love with you. Bane: Rep: Did I? Bane: Rep: I don't know what the ******** I knew or know. Toshi: Harrison: Maybe you didn’t care. Maybe you just wanted to tug on his leash. Bane: Rep: I don't think that was why I did it. Bane: Rep: He's no Al. Bane: Rep: I don't want him at heel, I don't want him broken. Bane: Rep: In fact the fact I didn't want him broken was part of it I think. Bane: Rep: But you are smarter than me I guess, maybe you know what I'm like more than I do. Toshi: Harrison: Whatever it was. Power games. A pity ********/> Bane: Rep: It can be whatever you want it to have been. Bane: Rep: I wouldn't have done it if you had said not to. Toshi: Harrison: I wanted it to have been real. Bane: Rep: I like him, he's my friend, he's been my friend since I got here, I care about him. I don't have many ******** friends, maybe he's my only friend other than you. He hadn't been laid in so long and I don't know. Bane: Rep: When I want to fix something like. Sometimes the easiest way to show that I'm serious is to like, give people /me/. Like, all of me. That's serious as it gets. Bane: Rep: It wasn't pity, I wouldn't give that to someone I /pitied/ Bane: Rep: I'd beat up someone I pitied to make them stronger. Toshi: Harrison: All of it, from the start, but it just never was. Toshi: Harrison: You could have let him go. You could have let him ******** someone else. I don’t know why he hung on to it. Bane: Rep: It was real, it wasn't some ******** imaginary thing. It was love, it just maybe wasn't the same ******** language of love. Bane: Rep: And its pretty shitty to imply he was just faking it or whatever. Bane: Rep: /I/ don't understand what the ******** love is meant to be either. How the hell do you know even I'm "real"? Bane: Rep: I can't let things go, I can't without like being made to. Toshi: Harrison: No. It was always you, from the start. He didn’t want to die a virgin. That’s why we hooked up. And then after…I don’t know. When I was convenient, it was okay. But when I wasn’t, he didn’t want to be around. And I just didn’t notice, until he left. Toshi: Harrison: So, him not caring that I’m out of his apartment, that’s about par for the course. It was inconvenient I was there anyway. He didn’t want you moving out, so he put up with me being an a*****e. For a while. Bane: Rep: /shakes his head Bane: Rep: You've made up this cold awful like, narrative. Toshi: Harrison: Like I said, I’d like for it to have been nicer.
Posted: Sat Jan 30, 2016 9:31 pm
January 31, 2016, after the argument; read from bottom of post upward:
Harrison @OfficerStabALot ur a b***h and a coward and I wish we’d never met.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Thanks for letting me know there's nothing left, anyway.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot like ur the victim. just ******** off. again.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime ... then I guess I'll stop bothering you.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime If I can't show you that I care and be believed, and I can't tell you that I care and be believed, and all you want from me is free services ...
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Ah. Well, I'm sorry for the inconvenience, in that case.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot it meant my apartment got wrecked. and then u and rep were hooking up, and I didnt want to get between it.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime But if you were just using me I guess it's nothing, after all.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You came back, for a while. I thought that meant something.
Harrison @OfficerStabALot but u can’t ever just say that s**t. why would u even want me around. have I made u happy at any time over the past year
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I want you in my life, but if you don't want to be around me there isn't a whole lot I can do about that
Harrison @OfficerStabALot yeah well same to you
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime No, it's about whether you want me there or not; if you don't, would you please ******** tell me so I don't have to hurt myself hoping?
Harrison @OfficerStabALot yeah I guess its still all about ur shitty self confidence
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime if you don't want to be around me I'll stop bothering you. I'm sorry.
February 3, 2016, Jordan tells Horace; read from bottom of post upward
Horace @nokoni_island Ok, take care of yourself.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I can revisit that when it's less raw.
Horace @nokoni_island Fair enough; I can't argue against that.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'll go with surviving for the time being.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Thanks, man.
Horace @nokoni_island Just surviving's not good enough.
Horace @nokoni_island No, I understand. If you need a beer buddy, let me know ok.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I knew it might happen. I'll survive.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Don't really want to talk about the details, if you don't mind
Horace @nokoni_island That what the ******** ain't directed at you, but them.
Horace @nokoni_island What the ******** Miller @AlphaHammerTime Harrison is not interested in repairing things, and Rep hasn't been back, so I guess I'm single again.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime They've moved out again. I apparently misunderstood some things
Horace @nokoni_island are they being dumb or something?
Horace @nokoni_island You don't have to answer that if you don't wanna, just..
Horace @nokoni_island ... why
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Makes it a little easier to pick a site, anyway.
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Seems like I'll be living alone.
Horace @nokoni_island Or rather, did ya show em yet!
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