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Thank you... but my home life is such a crap hole I have nothing to live for. Both my parents have cancer. I'm going to die anyhow. I don't want to go through that freaking hell. I get abused all the time and were losing our house. I just cant...
Kaelan Mochrie
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I tried to vomit suicide and almost succeeded. I used to say how stupid people were. But its not just because of him. He was literally all the fmaily or friend I had. But were broken. We were weeks away from him visiting again. We both cant do it.
God, thank you for giving him to me. But why?
I would like to say, I am thankful you didn't end your life. I don't know you, but I have certainly been in those positions where I felt life didn't matter anymore and attempted to end it. Personally, I am glad I didn't. Even though the future gave even more heart break, I was able to make a lot of new friends and for a time, new loves.
I wish I had an answer for you. I have asked the heavens that very question. Even recently with a relationship that ended. What could I have done differently to have kept her? Am I just that royally screwed up that I won't ever fine happiness?
I don't honestly know how to answer your question. To me, its a mystery. Just know, there are people out there that do care. It may not make sense and probably never will, but please don't give up on life or love.
Hey yo, no. There's always something to live for, you dork. I mean, I felt the same way, I really did. And I lived it out and ya know what happened? I'm marrying the most amazing man in the world, I have a good job and I have a hobby that I love. Things like what you're dealing with are temporary, and your life is forever. You can make it work!