Miss Ruckus
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Hello ladies and Gents
This topic may get ignored but I'd love there to be a place where we can openly discuss
Autism (the ASD Spectrum) Do you have it?
Does someone you know fall on the spectrum?
Have any stories?
My son is 3 and he falls on the spectrum, he is Non Verbal and
extremely anti social, it is both a blessing and the worst thing to ever happen
simultaneously. Please don't misunderstand this
I LOVE my son with all my heart and soul
but I hate Autism some days, it keeps him in a prison
and it kills my heart whenever he is crying and I can't for the life of me
figure out the cause, and he can't tell me either.
There are both happy and sad days
I write an honest blog about my life with my boy and
my hobby of Nail art (focusing on the nail art keeps my mind off the bad stuff)
I will be here for support on those bad days to answer questions
or even to have a laugh at the cute quirky things that happen
Peace and Love fellow Gaians
<3
This is my Blog
Yes, I was diagnosed when I was four years old. Before the APA classified it as ASD, I was in the category of PDD-NOS.
I couldn't articulate the thoughts in my head when I was young. I couldn't convey what I really meant to say. I was conscious of my surroundings and my thoughts. It felt like my mind and mouth were disengaged.
I attended speech therapy to get my words to form into sentences. It was tedious. At times, I became frustrated and I would cry. Despite the breakdowns, I kept practicing so I could find connection.
Even reading helped me. I read as much as I could (I still do). I looked up words in the dictionary to understand what they meant. I wanted to be able to communicate even if I wasn't great at it.
I also felt social rejection and the pain of isolation ached inside. I wanted to find social connection. Often, I was misunderstood. I learned to mimic others and read on social behavior so I could find my connection.
Eventually, I made friends with someone and I became excited to have one friend. Then I made more and I felt accomplished that I could establish that. However, it wasn't easy because there were bullies and users in my life and I was taken advantage of for not understanding how to avoid them.
I am in a relationship with someone who accepts this part of me, even though my neurological condition makes me quirky and weird. They love me for as I am. My wish is to make them happy and loved as they make me feel.
Sometimes this being a part of me, it feels like a blessing and other days a curse.
Even after learning how to socialize better, I struggle at times. It takes a lot of work and I need time to recharge. I had a hard time making eye contact but I got better at it even though I need to look away to break the intensity of making the effort.
So socializing is a challenge but I try to remember my advantages. Those are being able to focus for long periods of time, learn languages quickly, and being gifted at drawing.
The challenge I am working on now is to establish my independence to hold down a job. I am working with an agency that will help me get there.
A book called
Working With Aspergers by Rudy Simone helped me understand the struggle how most people with aspergers or high functioning autism when it comes to the world of work.
As far as I know, it is a part of my life and I strive to a better person than I was yesterday.
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I suggest when your son enters high school is to develop a work plan. The Developmental Disabilities Administration could help service to his needs.
Otherwise, I do wish you the best to get him through life.
There are a lot of challenges and rewards. It can be an experience, as a parent, that will make you stronger or become resentful. Take it one day at a time and don't give up.