Lady LaurelIe
Hmm, sounds a little harsh for a nurse (unless she was having a bad day or something, I dunno); but even if she was, that's no excuse to take it out on a patient.
I'm glad you had some nice nurses during your stay though as well. :]
As for the knife situation: Something must've have triggered them to take those precautions. In the mental health area, safety is a big priority (Maslow's Hierarchy).
If you decide to continue with a nursing degree, you'll learn about it. :]
That's a good mindset to have. :] One good thing about nursing, you're never stuck ... tired of an area, venture out & learn about another.
Yeah I try to focus on the positive experiences instead. One of the staff - not a nurse, just a psych tech or whatever they're called that was assigned to me my very first hospitalizations, gave me a hug. Well I asked him if I could have a hug. I had just found out they were sending me to the state hospital for longer term care and I was scared. We talked a long time about my PTSD and what to expect there, I was still scared and asked him if it would be alright to have a hug. He agreed but we had to go where the other staff didn't see because there's supposed to be no contact. It made that night a whole lot easier to deal with. He's like my third favorite staff member there. My absolute favorite I'm nearly never assigned to, but in the mornings he takes everyone for an activity that's really lighthearted. His favorite to do is a game where we hit a balloon around the room. When you hit it you have to make an animal noise. He always picks a turkey and he's amazing at it. The second favorite is just cause I'm most familiar with him and know what to expect. The third favorite is just a nice guy who seems to be there to make a difference. I see him at a local coffee shop sometimes when I go in. He goes there on his break and he's pleasant, I've invited him to sit with my friends a couple times but he refuses because he's on break and needs to not have to socialize for a while. I dunno seeing staff outside of that place is kinda nice for me, then when I see them in there they're more human.
I still no matter how many times I see her have never been able to bring myself to like my least favorite person there. She yelled at me when I was really dizzy and couldn't stand, she wasn't my staff and took my arm and basically threw me into my staff and told them to take me and that I ruined her group session. Some girl patients like her a lot, I just don't see why though. She's only nice on her own terms. I always call her "Miss" with her first name because I really don't like her and feel a compulsion that if I keep showing her respect maybe I'll actually develop respect for her. She says she won't retire until she's dead or they force her to. {shudders}
Yeah I understand they have to keep everyone safe, including me. But there's a difference between self-harm and suicidal gestures. I've attempted before in the past, trust me if I wanted to die I wouldn't have even said anything to the staff. It would have been completely different. I told the psychiatrist the next day when he brought it up that a staff member had reported that I threatened to kill myself. I had a very logical reason for why I wanted to hurt myself, it really isn't logical, but at the time I thought it was. I forget the response from the psychiatrist though. I think it was something pacifying though, but not condescending. It just bugs me when people get it wrong in their reports. I used to work at a nursing home in dietary. My job was to report how much people ate and I had gotten in trouble because a CNA thought I was making up numbers since at the end of the week I always sat at the window to add up all the numbers. The charge nurse that talked to me explained how important it is to not make up figures since it's a legal medical document that doctors use to monitor their patients. So, if food intake is that important, how important do you think it is to get a life and death matter right? That's my reasoning anyways. I'm really passive and a bit passive-aggressive. Would be nice if I could make my point to the people that it matters to. Working on it though.