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Sangre De Espana
It has been a very rough last couple of months.. Trying to hang in there..
. I miss mine too ~ both of them were outstandingly wonderful people like I'm sure yours was. But you have your contributions to make to the world. You will be remembered just as fondly by the souls that you encourage. Think of it as gifting the people you love now and in the future with the love and support and encouragement that she (they?) gave you. It is like the cheer-multiplier on her life.
It is rough! It is 12 years since my 2nd one went to Heaven and I still bawl whenever they are mentioned. Now they are happy, fierce, proud tears instead of bleak, sad, pathetic tears. Mine are proud of what I have accomplished and know that I will be thrilled to join them when it is my turn. I know your's is/are too!!!
Please pm me if you want.
heart heart heart heart heart You could tell me more about how proud you are of her/them.
Life isn't worth living if you go off the deep end everytime someone dies on you.. I tried to kill someone two years ago when Pooh Bear died (he's on my profile).. I miss that dog.. only reason to even live is I have 3 kids.. but sometimes I feel like I'm putting them in danger cause they are with me.l but I'm all they have.. my daughter, I can leave her with he grandparents if needed ( her mom is serving 10 years right now.. yeah, not a female whatsoever..).. and the other two is a boy and girl set of twins, I cut her mom loose cause I got tired of the arguing and fighting over nothing.. I have a policy where I don't curse in front of the kids at all and I came close cause of the twins mom.. well, grandma was an a*****e sometimes but she was very formidable and cause of that I lived every day like she wasn't going to die.. in her final years she was blind and bed ridden but she was still feisty.. she was still a good person though.. I always had my grandma and now I feel like I have no one now, just an empty void.. I tried to kill someone when PoohBear died, I tried to kill myself whengrandma died.. I think I did kill myself as I'm just a walking shell of nothing now.. I just don't think I'll ever be me ever again.. I don't know if you believe in spiritual stuff but, I can see things that no one else can and I can still see my grandma.. but she's not her 88 year old unable to move self, shes looking like her younger self, about 25 years old.. well, while everyone opposed me going to war, grandma was ok with it.. she said I should do it.. she just didn't see anything wrong.. I'm into experimenting with other things as well, it was grandma's idea I should try drag once (I do it once in a while still do my daughter cause, to her, I'm her mother and father ).. was also a luchador until an out of the ring accident killed that off.. we'll just see where I go from here.. for now, it's just gonna be a struggle raising 3 kids on my own.. sorry, just didn't think anyone would reply.. most of the time, people in Gaia just act like jerks (maybe that's on me though cause in used to be a huge jerk in my earlier Gaia years..)..