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Hes the Last Man Standing Report | 11/04/2010 11:39 pm: You're really that uncreative? Get your own insults, Mandy.

Sleepwalker.
Hes the Last Man Standing Report | 11/04/2010 7:05 pm: Murderer.
Hes the Last Man Standing Report | 11/03/2010 10:17 am: Worthless junkie.

I can do this all day, Amanda. neutral
Hes the Last Man Standing Report | 11/01/2010 11:13 pm: Psychotic b***h.
Hes the Last Man Standing Report | 11/01/2010 10:12 pm: stare *Going to get rid of you. Threateningly sips his coffee.*
Speechless Unicorn Report | 11/01/2010 7:49 pm: -she frowned as Amanda left the room *I'm not making much of an impression...* she thought. She usually liked ot be on people's good sides.-
-She thanked Amanda when she returned with the water, and had noticed how she followed John's order. As soon as he told her she went...this was interesting. She'd remember this_
Speechless Unicorn Report | 11/01/2010 7:26 pm: -notices Amanda silently hovering, and looks up, warmly smiling at her-
Amanda, would you like my chair? I don't mind standing...after all, I was the unexpected guest..
Sugar in Lemonade Report | 01/31/2010 4:29 pm: I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING? EXCUSE ME, ASSFACE. If you're ever in the hospital you should BOW DOWN TO ME. :l I WIPE PEOPLE'S ASSES LIKE YOU. People like you come in.
But otherwise I know who you are and what you've done. Bl OH YEAHHHH.
Sugar in Lemonade Report | 01/30/2010 1:01 am: NO U. U SHUT UP. :l YOUR MOTHER WAS A HAMSTER AND YOUR FATHER SMELT OF ELDERBERRIES.
rose waltz Report | 01/27/2010 9:42 pm: dum poop faec lolololo

About me

After I passed his test, John came for me. Told me I was reborn. That I appreciated life now, much more so than before. That I was truly worthy of living. But am I? Am I really?

He took me as his apprentice. I got the task of carrying on his life's work after he dies. He's taught me a lot. Pretty much everything I know.

Such as how to appreciate your life. See, you gotta live life to the fullest because life's too short to waste it. For example, wasting it by, well, doing drugs. Spending your waking hours in a pleasant daze, not caring about anyone, not caring about yourself, just caring about your next fix. Like I used to.

He taught me how to cherish life. How to appreciate every moment you have alive. You never know when your life will end.

I will admit, I have something to live for now. Someone, actually. John. He's become like a mentor, a guardian, a... father... to me, kind of. He shows me the way when I'm lost. He helps me when I make a mistake, and gets me back on track. He's actually a really neat guy. He knows a lot about many different things. A genius.

I gave everything to him. Every breath I took, every cell of my body, every tear I shed. Every fiber of my being belonged to him. It's all his still. Always will be.

So what's the problem? Well, it's simple.

John says he doesn't like murderers-- he despises them. Yet what he does is pretty much the same thing as murder. He puts people in gruesome traps, and expects them to do something extreme to win their lives back.

I'm not gonna lie. I know I'm a murderer. Unlike John, I'm willing to admit that. Besides, I know nobody's really gonna do it. Escape their traps, I mean. Why would someone cut out their eye, rip through flesh and muscle, cut off their foot... simply to win a key to their freedom? That is, if they accomplish their task in time. So why bother even giving them that chance to begin with?

I didn't always think like that. In the beginning, I swallowed everything he told me. Until the bathroom trap.

I couldn't just let Adam suffer... slowly dying alone in that dark, reeking bathroom.
I had to do something about it.

...It was a mercy killing.

It got easier after that, much easier. Especially seeing that the few that did make it didn't truly appreciate their lives even after winning their games. Finally I was in it just for the kill. Just to see the test subjects die. To see that moment when they realize that there's no way out. To see that moment in their faces when they stop trying to live and instead, start preparing to die.

I like that.

I'm pretty sure John knows what I'm doing, but by this point I don't care. It's not like he can do anything about it, what with him growing sicker and weaker. And he's gonna find out sometime. It's no use trying to hide it from him.

I'm sorry John. I've become of of the things you hate.

He thinks everyone's reborn once they pass their ordeal. Just because he was able to change, he thinks everyone else can too.

I know the truth. Nobody really changes. Not even me. Sure, I tried, but it's all just a big lie.

Nobody ******** changes.

Yeah, I wanna be like John, but I just can't do it. I can't keep myself as emotionally detached as he can. I can't predict how someone's gonna act. Yet I can't go back to how I was before. The useless junkie. I'm... god, Detective Matthews said it best. I'm "not Jigsaw".

When John dies, people will have a new reason to fear Jigsaw. With him, you've got a chance at living, no matter how small it is. Even if you have to do something really extreme, at least there's that chance.

That won't be true with me. There'll be no escape, no way to win. But that's okay. I'll mainly focus on getting the scum. The really horrible people. The ones that don't deserve to be out walking the streets while innocent people get locked away. The ones that don't deserve to be alive while others much more deserving die every day. The ones that don't deserve a second chance at life.

You know, John always says he's helping people.

Fixing people.

So why doesn't he fix me?

That's all I want.

Fix me, ********]

He helped me...

Amanda Young

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Location: None of your ******** business.

Occupation: See above. Go away.

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