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I have come a long way since my last installment. Everyone has said all my life that I am a failure. I would amount to nothing and everything was true up until now. Yes. I know. I sound insane and nobody who reads this would bat a believing eye at this. I am slowly evolving into a new type of being. A new Era is arriving. It is slow and painful..and so far away still..but I am evolving. As this Summer closes I look back on the many new pillars that have replaced the old. I have fixed many flaws in my character and also stunningly low caliber work ethic toward my true ambitions. Today was actually the end of an Era I thought would never happen. That is all I can say. She will never completely know how much I love her..but then again..is that possible in any case or situation? Her and I have a complex relationship but somehow have been maintaining it for over 5 years now. She really means the world to me and I love her every heartbeat. Today was a day I can say U truly contributed to our future. I had no idea things would happen this way. Not the slightest. Nobody will loOK back on this journal and say a lord and Savior wrote it. Nobody will remember my struggles as much as Her. This lord and Savior will make his mark by making the undocumeneted...documented. Trust me..there are no Google search results or eye witness accounts. This lord and Savior is looking for peace..and with a little chaos..I have begun to go home to that peace. Slowly but surly down that road. Maybe a few rest stops and car repairs..but no. I still go on. That home so warm in peace is near. This lord and Savior is about to make his debut. Get it?