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Dissociative Identity Dissorder vs. Father and Jail.
On December 17th 2006 I, Ocea, was arrested with the handcuffs and quickly escorted to a police vehicle and placed into the back. The Charges of Vandalism. I broke a window, trying to get away. I feel unclean now that my pristine record wrecked by a bout of my Multiple Personality dissorder. If you know what it is I go through you would not say I have a choice in the matter of when I Dissociate. Someone asside from myself takes over... A persona that I have no control over. Has it's own self awareness and everything. I have four for those who do not know me. 1 is a 16 year old boy who will fall in love at a drop of a hat with anyone. He poses as myself and will answer to my name but also answers to Dom or dominic. 2 Is myself, Kam or Kamron, for those who do not know I am the host of my body and of these personas. 3 is Cain... 35 years old, Cold, Sadistic and highly volitial and lately very hostile and dangerous. 4 is Morgan an 82 grandmother, the explain all and very kind hearted. The keeper also of my body. She is the only one aware of all of the personalities asside from myself. She usually can hold Cain and Dom in check but two nights ago it was impossible. I am 21 years old and I need to know if you think I should have been charged with breaking the window when I dissociated. I was pushed beyond my brink that night and I could not handle it. I ruined it. I need your help into telling me what your opinion is. I black out periodically and that's when I dissociate and no, alcohol is not the case nor is drugs. An abusive childhood is key here so tell me what you think.






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Seranin
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commentCommented on: Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 12:10am
Well Kam, I don't agree with them arresting you.. I just think you should seek a therapist to help cope with these things. Or maybe some meds D: They really do help, even if I don't agree with them. Then again, I don't have really any mental disorders ^^;

Again, seek a therapist. They may help you alot ^^


commentCommented on: Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 12:33am
Thats funny, but crazy people don't know there crazy



PiXelateD FoOl
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Nintendoko
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commentCommented on: Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 04:40am
Uhm.
Yeah, I don't know if you are aware or not, but crazy people generally tend to know they are crazy if they are told.

My brothers and sisters all know they have split personalities.
They have been in hospitals before, you GENERALLY tend to know you are crazy.


>___> JUST SO YOU KNOW *COUGH COUGH*


Uhm, anyways, I can't say much on this subject other than that.
I figure that you should count yourself lucky that you weren't thrown into a hospital.

Maybe look into medication?
If they have it? <3 heart heart Best of luck to you Kamron.
And I look forward to seeing you in the area soon.


commentCommented on: Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 06:47am
That is really sad, but I think they did wrong arresting you because of that.. I hope you will feel better later



Mit-Rah
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Faid Shadowlight
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commentCommented on: Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 05:42pm
Two votes got no charges here... whee


commentCommented on: Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 06:29pm
This is going to sound very harsh, but since it was you that was there, then charges are going to be filed, no matter who was in control. now getting convicted on the other hand is a different story. you could always plead "Not Guilty by reason of mental defect." Since you are diagnosed with that, then that would be a reasonable defense.

That is all I can say there



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commentCommented on: Fri Dec 22, 2006 @ 03:44am
You should have seeked help before you let anything happen. You're held responsible. You were arrested because the police were doing their job. They can't just go "Oh, he's dissasociating, he's fine lets go." You could have hurt someone and thats why they arrested you. Feel lucky you didn't break someones face and get charged with assualt and battery. You just got a vandilism charge, consider yourself lucky.


commentCommented on: Fri Dec 22, 2006 @ 03:47am
This is Risicka and MrGraves you little brat. First of all, in cases of multiple personalitly disorders; i.e. schitzophrenia (use proper vocabulary if you wish to be taken seriously by the way); it's either all or none in knowing about each other personality. It's [i]never[/i] one personality knowing about all the others and them not knowing about each other. Plus, people who are schitzophrenic don't ask other people in their surroundings if their eyes have changed colors and if they had basically say, "Okay, I'm Cain." No, that just proves you're stupid but not schitzophrenic. Also, shitzophrenic peoples don't know the names of their other personas strictly by being them. Maybe, next time you claim to have multiple personas, actually do your research and pull it off so that everyone else doesn't know what a little attentiion whore and whiny little b***h you are just so you can have excuses for being a brat. Also, how have I ever been deceitful towards you? Honestly, I don't have a clue. You're the one who asked if we should just be friends. I merely agreed with you that we should. Also, you can't claim that I was deceitful in knowing you're shy when you dragged [i]my[/i] sister with our neighbors upstairs on your birthday to a god damn liquor store. My sister. She met you once before that day. You can't claim shy after that. Plus, it really was your decision to leave the apartment. Phil asked you to leave if you cared about me in any sense of the word. You agreed. True, I wanted you out. You didn't do a damn thing around the place. Oh and Phil doesn't understand how he ruined your life either. He gave you a place to stay, not a place where you could get drunk, brag about having a 14 year old fiance in montana then end up puking all over Phil's clothes and cleaning it with Phil's clothes. That was your own damn fault. So, other than those dealings where maybe I could be seen as deceitfull if the whole truth isn't heard, how else was I deceitful? Please, tell me. I wish to know. [i]We[/i] would like to know.



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Astycat
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commentCommented on: Sat Dec 23, 2006 @ 08:50am
It must be terrible to go through that and I don't really know how to respond except the only thing I know what to say is - you can always ask God to help you in your darkest times. "He who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved..." heart
You don't have to suffer. If it helps, you can always get professional medical help too. blaugh rofl
Besides you can be found not guilty if they can prove that you have such problems like WyndSyrin says....


commentCommented on: Sat Mar 10, 2007 @ 06:02pm
Thank you all.. even you Mr. Graves for your insight. Or should I say Kimbra.. That's right. I used your real name. Phil and Kimbra every one. The b***h who kicked me out of OUR apartment, and Phil for half-assing a place to stay. By the way I love the little lies you two come up with. Like I couldn't get any more entertainment.



Ocea007
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commentCommented on: Thu Mar 29, 2007 @ 12:59am
Ocea007,
You got alot of nerv trying to pretend you have some sort of dissassociation persona problems. I am not amused with your antics as I know of someone who actually has (by correct mental terms,) "schitzophrenia". She does not know of her other personalities as they do not converse with her when she is awake. If you really do your reading, you will find that tests and studies show that those with true multiple personalities, only one persona is awake at a time and they generally do not know about one another. Get your story straight before you to try to create some lame sob story to get pity from others to make yourself feel better.

Now did you actually ever wonder why your former roomies booted your a** out of their homes? If you haven't, than please remove your head from your rear end and think. If you still cannot, than you have some serious issues with "Dissolutionment" and not "Dissociative Disorder"


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