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not bad yet not good to do. try is not great idea although this way will discover what i wish for.
i feel bad with the past and i wish for peaceful moment among people who i met in the past and pray for their happiness without me ahead.

meanwhile i do not know who wishing for myself to come on their side.
so if there is no act to show me their truth motive then i hope they will soon have meet person who could fill their emptiness heart.

so i want myself something equal of pure attention with hope could be cooperate in life together, says i only trust 1 person but people always says i am looks like could be polygamy and i have enough with that sussy baka moment XD ( without i know that person think "i am their girlfriends" without declare to me that "i am officially their girlfriends".... how dare they could get angry on me without reason i know )
i tried my best to be good girl but all of my efforts seems to be into fooling me around by others which make me get annoyed after i realize what is wrong DX

now i wish for equal life and fair freedom biggrin
I wonder if just stay together without think of get married are good idea?
because what i think of married life mean....... you need to know well your partner and could measure if you able to survive with their hilarious part which mean are you ready tolerate their super bad habit ??
honestly ever since i try myself on romance although there is good memory with them and there is also bad scene too.... i learn something... the time i want with them actually are the worst part i ever think v_v i did not mean they are bad but i blame myself who let myself flow with the situation... because... i just realize something.
when i am with them actually there is something they expected from me the most and when i am being not their ideal ways of their thinking. >.>
that is why..... lot of people think i am the worst girl and i just understand these after i do lot of thinking of myself in the past.

so that is why i wish for equal life and fair freedom by people who declare their self wanted to choose me for spending life as friends, partner, rival, sweetheart, and as one for one vision in life.
i meet good person in my life in the past but i want normal life by have family. have husband, child, life being good mother and could work well, argue for strive the best life ever, and i want to life always faithful for one person i choose in the name of married life ... lol... i know something like this are easy to talk easy to go for it but i hope.... people who choose me not regret choice of picking me as their partner....
sound i am being greedy, huh?
but i wish for having kind of simple partner and the problem is my culture and belief.
yaaa... tidak semua orang paham saat saya bilang begitu karena kalau apa yang namanya budaya adalah hal paling kolot di dunia moderen kata manusia moderen juga. > v > berarti saya manusia zaman batu yang masih mau aja ngikutin zaman dulu.. hahahahaha
if only this life every humans have one belief, one culture, one language..... probably i have no hard time to choose my partner... hahahahaha
that is why i hope person who fall on me have no regret to choose me

but seriously my heart are weak for making people feel sad and suffer

i hope no one feel sad if meet me in happy moment or sad moment...ciao~