i met these person 2 years ago with the requirement being serious to choose him for future life together and since that he let me learn how to accept things with proper solution and not decide one sided. but this year we will soon let our relationship end cause there is one things i cannot do.
I used to solve everything alone by talk to no one about this case in real life but type it online which cause me being odd and just avoid that makes me uncomfortable which by any means that i am run away with no answer and no learn.
since we decide to start our story with his motive to start things seriously.. by these fact we look alike friends by other people. since i start these so far we only did holding hand and hug, no more, and make me safer for these ways.
but much more things he did is ask me to let know which part makes me worry and let him to find out where i can ask for help. honestly, he is good person but sadly the past mess him up and how i see him back when we first meet and now as my BF are really big gap for me... he only says cause seeing me that he want to try his best being a man.. if you know what i mean... the past makes me consider a lot about how i pity him... :'C but my logic ask me to avoid in any means.... that i realize i am being hypocrite....
and i want to says thanks a lot cause with him i can understand a lot things rather than worry... when he know i am being overthinking of nothing he used to ask me and let me watch things that cheer me up.
i am glad i met him. the feelings still lingering on me although we will end up our ships soon.
as for my 3rd BF, he give me vibes that closer to my first love
although we've no longer together, your vibes that cheer me up will still stay wherever i go. thank you for trust me being someone you dear so much.
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this journal mostly full of unwanted words.
however, from read these you may know how am I toward people.
however, from read these you may know how am I toward people.
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