Aug 28th, 2018
So... Mike comes home from vacation today and I'm happy but I still can't feel... anything. I'm numb, I'm still very hurt, I ache in my chest, the only change is that my body is demanding food and I can sleep. All I want is to talk to him and I've realized that I need to know if my ex influenced his decision. I just got out of a controlling relationship, he is NOT allowed to control me now that we're not dating.
But more than that, I've been holding on to this shred of hope (and I know it's not good for me because I already know what his decision is) and I need to either have it acknowledged or taken from me because I can start healing. I don't even WANT to, still, I don't want to let go of him or the hurt or the care and until I want to I know I won't be able to.
I wonder if he's as upset by his decision as I am...
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