Well yesterday night I was a wreck, oh my goodness I can't even describe how I felt. Waited all day for the boyfriend to call and not once did he, so I had to. I was really REALLY mad and sad. It created so much doubt in my mind I am starting to second guess our relationship. Then I come back to reality after crying about it for so long. I haven't figured out how we are going to do this.It just seems to get harder and harder but I feel like its all just in my mind.
Good news though, I'm starting to see some progress with the healthy eatin. Down 5 pounds and its only been a week. Wooo weee thats a lot for me. Idk why but the first 10 are the easiest and then it just gets harder and harder. At least there is progress and thats all that matters. Gotta remember to do exercises today.
Overall I was waiting for a meltdown to happen. Only took about 8 days to happen but it happened none the less. Good that I get it out of my system now while I can. I went by my bf's old house after work. It was so empty. And yet there are so many memories inside that one house. I wish I could just go inside and lie on the floor. But anyways day 9 of no bf and already so much has changed I can't even begin to describe. At least Im moving forward somewhat?
Lunar Starlight · Sat Oct 01, 2016 @ 07:27pm · 0 Comments |