------I get shy sometimes about my height though, though I don't mind it now as I did back then. Probably because I officially stopped growing, and I've come to terms and acceptance of it. She's tall compared to me. Sometimes I step back and look up at her and all I can think in my head is:
------"Damn, what a woman."
------Cause of height difference her hands are a bit bigger than mine. I love her hands though, love the way her fingers move through the fingerboard on her violin. Love the way her thumb circles around mine when we're sitting down at the bustop waiting for the bx41 bus to arrive. I love to warm them up when they're cold and because somehow my hands are always warm. Though recently mine have been getting cold and she's warming up mine.
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------It was late at night. this was five days ago, It's cold as usual, it being december. We'd just left the resturant after a dinner date, we stayed there for hours even after finishing eating. We just sat there talking. Talking about life, crazy stories we had when we were in highschool, past loves, and family. I could have sworn the waiter have given us a few looks as he stood in the corner. I held her hands as we exchanged stories. I even talked about the "Until Next Times". But it was late, and theres a time that her bus stops running, which I had forgotten at that moment, not intentionally though.
------We stood there for a while waiting for the bus, continuing our conversation from the resturant. She looked at the bus schedule on the post stop.
------"Well ********," she said. I looked at her and shrugged. "I'm gonna get so in trouble," she starts to worry.
------I met her brother way back then, he told me that they both have parental issues to their father, similarly how I had them with my mum. I'm not sure if I have the proper authority to write about this, but I'll write some of it for some context.
------My phone had died then, and she doesn't have a phone, so she had no way to contact her parent. Her having no phone also is a struggle because I do miss her on days I don't see her, but thats another story. I offered her to stay the night at my place, which was pushing my luck because, I took her out on a coffee date earlier on the day, only to take her out on a dinner date later on. I wouldn't consider the other times prior before this dates, such as rehersals and parties we attended together. But taking her home was only logical right? After all it was way too late for her to walk her home, and I could charge my phone and she could call and asked to be picked up or whether she could stay the night.
------She agreed and I held her hand as we walked from the bus stop to my place. I walk home everyday due to the campus being close by my place, I used to bike it when it was cooler. At these tempratures however, I'd only risk hypothermia. Not that I'd mind the hypothermia, but I feel like she adds on to the reason why I should still exist and live, despite these dark thoughts that linger upon my head.
------We reached my place, my studio/room was a mess. She had been there before for rehersals, and for recording. So for her seeing it as messy as it was, was quite mortyfing for me at least.
------"Sorry for the mess," I lightly smiled and scratched the back of my head.
------"Its fine," she looked around to see the trace familiarities of when she last saw it. There were papers, cables, and clothes all over the floor, the bed, and the workstation. "I lived with brothers so this is normal."
------I start picking up articles of clothing on the floor and started tossing them on my bed as I charged my cellphone. Once it was fully charged I had given it to her. She called her parental unit, the terminology that she uses to call her dad; but he did not pickup.
------"Well that settles it, I guess I'm staying the night" She smiles as she shrugs.
------"I hope you don't get in trouble"
------"I'll be fine"
------"Promise me that tomorrow okay?" I stick out my pinky.
------"Promise," she said as she wraps her pinky around mine.
------I flipped open my sofabed for us to sleep in and wrapped my music blanket into it. She started reading and lightly humming it. I stopped for a moment facinated by her. I'm pretty sure I've written about how much I fell in love with her voice in the previous entry.
------She stopped and blushed lightly: "Sorry..."
------"It's fine," I smile: "You're wonderful."
------"..Thanks.."
------She sat down on the sofabed, while I laid down. It had been an exhausting day. I forgot to mention but she has sleeping problems, I don't know since when, but its similar to mine. When we're thinking about a lot, and our bodies don't let us rest due to overthinking. I remember when we had first stayed up late at night. We watched The Babadook together, but we're similar in a way that we both laugh in horror films and horrific situations.
------She laid down next to me, staring at the ceiling, while I stared at her.
------"What are you thinking of?" I asked.
------"School, tomorrow, the ball we're going to, my parental unit, you," She smiles as she lists them out, you can see that it was a painful smile.
------I told her about what i usually do when this happens to me, such as creating a plans. Though she told me that it was already too late. I held her close.
------"We'll be okay," I reassured her. "You'll be okay."
------I pushed myself to stay up with her. We watched youtube videos, of some of her favorite coreographers, and some of my favorite guitarists. We stayed on until I started to show signs of fatigue.
------"You should get some rest," she said, as Yvette Young plays in the background.
------"So should you."
------"I'll try.."
------I got up to turn off the lights, and went back on the bed. I closed my eyes. She pulled me close to her.
------"Sorry I got cold," she said.
------"It's fine."
------I wraped my arms around her and she did the same. This was the first time I had gotten this close to her face and my heart started racing, enough to jolt me back up awake. I stared at her face, she was wide awake. I see her big beautiful hazle eyes up close. I see her big soft lips up close. She smiles at me. I grabbed the side of her face and ran my thumb down her cheeks, She tries to shift her eyes away, but she ends up looking back. I'm not sure if she was blushing but it was too dark to tell, the only light emmiting from my laptop.
------"My heart is racing..." I told her as I moved her hand to touch my chest where she could feel it beating wildly as if they were war drums.
------"Same..."
------"....Do you wanna make out?"
------"Sure..."
------We moved in to close the distance between us, and we pressed our lips with each other. I felt her tounge graze and dance around mine. I can feel her breathing accellerating, I run my hands accross her back and pulled her hips closer to mine. She puts her leg over me. I ran my hand down her back to her leg, feeling her curves and contours. I start squeezing her thigh as we made out with increasing intensity. We rolled over so that she got on top of me. She started grinding, gyrating her hips on me. She danced all over me. I grabbed her shoulder and started thrusting my hips up, while pulling her close to me. She releases the kiss to intake some air, while I started to kiss her neck. I hear her moan softly, She grabs my hair and presses my head onto her neck, until she pulls it back to kiss me again. As our legs started to get tired, I started thrusting harder, till I had no more energy, and I felt her quiver on me. She rolled off me and I turned over to look at her.
------"That was intense..." she said.
------"Yeah..." I run my fingers down her cheek. she held my other hand firmly. "You wanna actually do it?" I joke around, hoping
------"I can't..." she said, looking away.
------"Its alright, I don't mind." I pulled her close to kiss her forehead. She pulled me close again and held me tightly. "Do you wanna go out?"
------"Okay," She pulled herself up and gave me a soft kiss.
------"I'm such a dweeb," I tell her.
------"No you're not, you're just fine" she said sofly as she giggles.
------"Aren't you suppose to ask the girl out then have intense make out session later?"
------"Yeah, its okay though," she said smiling.
------"I really hope you don't get in trouble tomorrow."
------"If anything, I think it was worth it."
------"We should get some sleep though, Its already five..." I said as I looked at the laptop screen, to see the time.
------"Okay..." she said softly,
------I pretended that I went to sleep, I felt her put her leg over me again, I held her close as I slowly fell back asleep. Sometime later I dreamnt that my body had been bifractunated from my waist, only to wake up to find that it was her leg that was over me. It had gotten heavy as she was really asleep. I tried to get it off, but I was still exhausted from the night. I didn't mind it as much later. I felt her heartbeat later as I held her close to me. I felt mine in unison with hers, and mine syncopates around hers. She really does make me dance, as my heart beat danced in eigth notes, while hers danced in quarternotes.
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Sorry that might have been a little nsfw durring the end there, but I wanted to write it down, maybe even convert it into an Until Next Time segment of a short story. This woman, is amazing...
Thanks for reading though, this is Anikacy, I hope you enjoyed it.
