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I have decided to do a whole overhaul of my journal it will now be Random Thoughts of a Crazy Person. Anything that pops in my head will come out in my journal. i have many a thought to express. In real life i am trapped in a relationship with a man i do not love and i know doesn't love me. When I don't do as he wants I am yelled at called names and sometimes hit. I lie to everyone and say he would never hit me. He takes my money I make working and spends it on drugs i like to write down my feelings to make me feel better but when i do if he finds them i am hit or yelled at he doesn't get on here or know about my journal on here so my thoughts are safe. I am in love with some one i probably shouldn't be but he is far away and i cant see him till after October 2016. I shouldn't love him because he has hurt me before not physically but emotionally. I think i am about ready to give up on love yes my love messaged me and says he loves me and wants to be with me but how do i know i am the only one he has said this to he has done this to me before well not quite its a bit different. IDK what to do. Thoughts anyone???