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Gaia, we meet again,

Its been quite some time since I even gave this website a second thought. I'm tempted to come back and explore some forums. However, time is something that, as the years go by, becomes more and more precious to me. I do not know how much time I see myself spending here any more. This is as good a place as any to write down my thoughts.

I was very tempted to delete all my old journal entries after reading them. Sheesh, talk about angst. I guess its to be expected...can't blame old naive me I suppose...I can blame myself for bad poetry and mediocre writing.

I'm trying to keep myself honest and this is one of the oldest places I can look back to that shows how I was in my youth. Not very proud of the small picture it paints, but its still an honest glimpse nonetheless. With that in mind I decided, for better or worse not to delete my old entries/posts.

I actually enjoyed reading the entry about my car keys. Well, enjoy wouldn't be completely accurate. I enjoyed the memory of my father coming to the rescue (he always did that best). I did not enjoy seeing how much of an a** I was in my younger years. Not to imply that i'm still not an a**... I didn't even remember that had happened. I wish I could laugh about that now with my father. If he were still here I would apologize for all of the grey hairs I gave him.

My Dad and my Son are both sensitive topics...may they both rest in peace...I really wish I didn't have to type that...I will save that for another entry...not really ready to open that door at the moment or share... Sorry.

Yeah life has dealt its blows...somehow I am still standing. I don't think it would have been possible to survive as long as I have without my loving wife, who has had to deal with as much, if not more s**t...

She is my rock. The only thing that keeps me sane.

Anyway,

I want to use this as a medium to express myself as anonymously as possible...i'm really not too concerned with it, but anonymity is nice, especially since i'm a teacher. Yeah go figure, look at my old posts and try to imagine that guy teaching kids. Ha! Maybe one day I will be brave enough to show one of my students my old rantings. Might be a humbling experience for me...did i say humbling, i mean humiliating.

Well, to anyone reading this, thank you for taking the time to read this. I can't promise that future posts will be frequent or meaningful.