I guess, looking back on it, the past six months or so were good. Great, actually. And I suppose I took them for granted, and I probably wish I could take that back now. But it's gone - all gone.

True, he contacted you first but then YOU messaged him. Up until then, he would have had NO way of contacting you... *sigh* Whatever. It's not like I can do anything to change it. I can, but "he wouldn't like that". So, it seems I'm stuck, trying to get used to something that keeps seeming to get thrown into overdrive every time I turn. Nothing's going to get better over the course of three days; it just doesn't happen that way Three weeks, or better yet, three months is more acceptable, but of course I can't have that. I can't have acceptable. I can just have "suck it up because you should have had more than enough time."

So, I go back to my previous statement - WHATEVER. I feel so through and tired and done with this all, but then he's being so good and it's like... why listen to me on everything else except the one thing I NEED? I guess I'm just going to try and get through this, one step at a time.

I just hope they're baby steps and not the ones of a giant.