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To a greater extent even. Hah.

I wonder if she miscarried twice back to back in the same year.
I wonder if she went through labour the second time.
I wonder if she had her husband crying about how he can't support the both of them and he wants her to keep working a day after the hospital and they scraped her out.

I wonder if one of the young doctors said : "Yeah...In a normal pregnancy...There's a heartbeat, but in this case there's not soo...yeah.."

Or if the nurse when she went in crying made her wait four hours and asked her what grade she was in.

AND NOT TO MENTION, BUT I WILL:

The six months of suicidal-ness I went through
and the fact that I was working at a job I hated enough in the first place

But I ended up losing my baby in my first real shift there.

And that halloween I bled buckets because of my surgery.
...But of course had to keep working.

And how they were telling me "There's no shame in medication" at that place of work.

And how I feel even now that I'm broken and have been trying for the last 5 months with no results.

Also it's not like I have any babies of my own at this moment anyway.
If I ever get ******** pregnant that would be my first.

To a ******** greater extent.

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