i hate migrains i hate stomach aches why must they make it so hard to work
in fact i hate work too why even go there
i was thinking today i dont really care for much
i am paying over 150 dollars for an anime convention and trinkets from it when i dont really even care to go i am not that into anime most of my friends that are going seem obsessed one religiously watches naruto most others love anything japanese almost all of them own some collection of anime
i courently have one colection of american made manga and two other books of manga one of the two i dont care for much the other i like but have no plans on ever buying any myself
i enjoy watching anime but that doesnt mean that i want to spend time and money on it i just dont feel like i will be getting much out of this
so instead of spending the money for the convention i am basicall spending that much just so i can have a few fun days with my friends, btw i cant find my camera so john better charge the batteries for his, or i am going to beat his a22
the need to write this down came about when i was looking at my fish tank it makes my apartment smell terible and i hate the fish inside i think one might be dead but i dont feel like finding the carcas
hmm i guess the reason i dont care is because i got the stuff from kris when i thought about having fish i wanted them because they would be something i could care about and take care of but before i bought them i got angry at kris just using his tank pissed me off so i did not want fish anymore i ended up buying fish anyway and putting them in the tank when they were in there i felt nothing for them when i had bought them kris helped me pick them out i fed them the least i could i started to hate them more when my sister would use them as an excuse to force me to stay home "the only one who faces the consequences when you are not home is your fish" seriously, my fish will die if i am not home for a day? she refused to feed them if i decided to be gone for a weekend even when i would come home and feed them she would still say that i am not here to feeed them ever i did not like being here she was here she just wanted me here for her, she was always at her boyfriend's, she did not want me at my boyfriend's place, she hated my boyfriend then kris started partially using my tank as a recuperation station for his fish when they were picked on by the other ciclids in his tank great now i had him trading in half dead or dieing fish into my tank wonder what kind of diseas thwy would bring kris kept looseing plecos, so he borowed one of my favorite fish, my albino barbed pleco it made it the longest out of any cleaner fish he had put in his tank but he did not give it back in time and it was torchered to death just like the rest he bought me a chinese algae eater to replace it by this time i was feeling nothing for my fish i would wake up in the morning, ask them if they were still alive, then feed them a few flakes "are you still alive, me too" i gave them water changes but felt nothing for the fish the algae eater died and the tank was over taken by green algae i guess i was over feeding my fish a few of my friends made comments about the tank looking poor they thought i was not taking care of my fish i explained to them that the algae was there because my eater had died and i had yet to get a new one it was not hurting the rest of the fish but they still seemed quite sure of themselves that there was something wrong with my tank this just pissed me off more now i have stopped doing water changes or even filling it fully the filter was not properly working for a while and i just left it that way for a long time i still feed the fish and add water every once in a while, but now having them there just upsets me
i guess the most upsetting thing right now i love joe, maybe i dont even know why i care about him anymore he used to be the only thing i was sure i cared about the think keeping me going now i dont know
lol the city is testing their tornado sirens, i thought it was done on wecnsesdays
Fay Da Way · Thu Apr 22, 2010 @ 07:37pm · 0 Comments |