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Yes, I do cry
Yes, it does hurt
Yes, I am scared
No, I don't need your help
How can everyone just TRUST right out of the blue?
How can someone truly believe a person will never hurt them?
No one can
Because it is impossible to NOT hurt the ones who trust you
And why would they choose me?
Am I really deserving of their pure thoughts?
Am I really allowed to give advice and make judgements after everything I have done?
Do I deserve to be consider a friend?
These doubts plague my mind daily:
Am I worthy?
Do you really give a damn about me?
Will you save me when I fall?
Or will you leave me like everyone always does?
I don't want to be alone like that again...
But I still manage to put on a smile
And pretend that I'm ok
Scared someone will notice
But silently praying that someone will open their arms, truly smile, and say, "it's ok for you to be sad"
I need someone like that
But will they be willing to do that for me?
I love you all
But do you love the real me?
I hope one day I'll let you meet her
Without being afraid
Of losing everything