Journal, you have witnessed it all. How I obtained both the Guitar of Demona and Angellus. You've seen how they changed me at first and later merged with me. How they affected my state of mind. How strange, extreme my behaviour can get. I had dubbed it, Conscience Disease.
Prepare for an analysis and breakdown of the various forms.
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Conscience Diseased - Good
This happens when the situation calls for incredible understanding towards it,
or when only the good within me is called upon.
(Note: Good is countered by the power of the Guitar of Demona.
If this was not the case, the Angelicism would destroy my very mind.)
Pros:
In this state I
- become highly rational and understanding.
- think thoroughly and quickly before I speak.
- Seem to be impervious for all physical damage.
Cons:
In this state I
- am far weaker physically.
- might think too much sometimes.
- am very weak against magic attacks and even verbal assault.
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Conscience Diseased - Neutral
The state I am normally in. I can change my clothes and everything else, as long as I do not unequip the Guitars. Doing so results in excruciating pain.
(Note: At times one of the, or both, Guitars are not at all visible on my back.
I have yet to find the cause of this.)
Pros:
I'm neutral against most things and am the most pleasant in this form.
Maim heart agrees on this statement.
Cons:
Constant pondering about my past and how I ended up in Gaia. Also, this constant pondering makes me weak when it comes to things that adress my conscience.
This makes me change in either Good or Bad.
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Conscience Diseased - Bad
Also dubbed 'Dark'. This is caused by a bad state of mind and a bad conscience at times.
It seems to appear far more often then Good, yet it fades faster then Good does normally.
(Note: Bad is countered by the power of the Guitar of Angellus. Because of this, I do not change into a complete beast. If the Guitar of Angellus didn't protect me, the Demonism would rip apart my very flesh.)
Pros:
In this state I
- am way more powerful then my physique hints.
- gain heightened senses. Also, I can raise my voice up to a roar.
- Seem to be impervious for all magical damage.
Cons:
In this state I
- become irrational.
- am more easily irritated/annoyed.
- am weak against any good physical blow, if they can get close enough.
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Note to self: Ask Maim heart to carry a camera with him, so I can add in visuals of my various forms.
I...I can feel my body changing, Journal. I'm afraid.
Perhaps...perhaps...Angelicism or Demonism will show itself soon...
~K.Utagawa
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Murr... Great job with the info.
Are you sure you just want me to carry that camera to JUST video tape THAT?