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(I was late to update this Journal razz )

Hello to all!

Well, tis be the end of the first day up here at AnimeNext. So far so good I'd say. I didn't do a ton today, but that seems to be normal with me it seems, though I do take in the feel and relaxing of being out here. So I guess that's a complete day for me.

Saw all the spots of the new location, and I love the setup. Nicely organized and a great amount of room. What I did do for the most part was wander around with Russ and Lisa, go tot he dealers room at some point and pick up a couple things (a Tails plush and a bottle, the wear at your hip kind). Hung out with Matt and his friend, cousin, and her boyfriend. Cool people for sure. Specially since his cousin is a Sonic nut like I am, which I don't seem to find many in life very often. It's a nice change of pace.

Tomorrow I will be entering the Yu-Gi-Oh card tournament and Super Smash Bros. Brawl tournament (will be most likely using Lucario and Pit). I might enter the halo tournament as well, but that's a 'we'll see' situation. Other than that, I have no other plans other than to go to Artist Alley and maybe pick up a poster and pins (they do some REALLY good work down there). If I do anything else, it's if I can fit it in.

The odd thing about the day, which is becoming a bloody pain to me as of late, is this odd feeling of emptiness at the end of the day. I have had a nice day, enjoyed practically all I've done, yet...I feel simply empty. Even a little alone.

Most likely, it's me being single and seeing all these people being together. They all enjoy what they do together, more or less...

Err, I'm going to stop there, for I'm not going to mope on about it. It won't help anything and certainly won't fix anything. I just wish I wasn't so shy...it is highly likely it keeps me from actually finding that person I'm looking for.

If there was anyone thing I ever wanted to change about myself, that would be it. It has kept me from more than finding someone...but also just enjoying life. Sure I've loosened up greatly from what I once was, but I need that one last push. The one that allows me to let go. Not sure what it will take, be it I have no choice or someone pushes me...but I hope it comes around soon. It would make me feel a lot more comfortable with myself, if nothing else.

OK! Enough sad stuff! Update on the Union League. My beta reader is indeed busy with things at the time, so it is unsure of when he will be done with it and I will not push him to do so. So instead, I shall post the pre-proofread version. Least this way, you get the overall chapter, just with some errors here and there...so please don't mind them ^_^