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no matter how hard he tries goatboy will never be forgiven
Risu has that woman spirit, holding on to those grudges for the rest of her life
and goat will never know why she is angry at him
this reminds me of my sisters
my sister is getting married and does not want family in the wedding
my other sister finds family important because they are the ones who will stand behind you when you fall, she does not believe friends will be able to drop everything in there life to head down to Florida for a wedding that could just as easily be held here on the north side of the U.S. Chunk of States
but I guess
if her friends are close and she thinks they will make it
I am siding with my other sister, I like being in weddings, and even though I hate to admit it, I would like to be in my sister's wedding and I resent not being in it, my other sister was able to successfully include everyone, it took two years of planning and the wedding was big, but it worked and most people were at least semi-happy
this wedding is just causing turmoil
my sisters are trying to talk to each other again but they both feel attacked and hated I feel I should step in I hear both sides but I can not connect them
one feels forgoten and like the other doesnt care
one feels attacked, and thinks the other one is attacking thier fiance just because of thier wedding plan
when the reason he is not liked is because he has a very high and mighty additude and acts like he is above it all if he would just get off his pedestal and join the rest of us he actually yelled at my mother and sister once, but it was just a miss understanding (which was actually my fault) and his form of humor is also miss understood, he likes to be sarcastic, but he does not sound as sarcastic and funny as he thinks he is, he sounds hurtful and mean
my sisters try to talk and get over their differences, but it always ends in fights they both feel victimized
I can hardly stand it
hmmm... on to my own life:
I guess this is going to be kind of a negative message, I have not been able to get a job, and I have been haveing a lot of trouble keeping positive in any situation. At school they keep giving us new projects to work on, but I do not feel any of mine turn out. This failure is proved when we get a project where we are competeing in makeing a logo or an advertisement for an organization, when they come and pick out the logo they like best, it is always someone else's. I just can never do anything good enough. I have applied at multipe graphics jobs and been turned down flat. My ambition and positive outlook are just about completely gone.
I guess all these negative feelings was what I was avoiding shareing, I just need to learn to cope, and to figure out what I am doing wronge
Have you ever felt like the world was against you? Like everything you found good about yourself felt like a lie?
I am just in kind of a downer right now, I am sorry if I bring your mood down too.
(I sent this message to a friend a while ago, I was feeling very down, and they have yet to reply, I guess they did not care, I am so down all the time they are probably sick of me)
I do have a job now, I am not a full time employee at wally world (wal~mart) I actually enjoy it, I do not get much sleep as I am a full time student
8-2 school 4-1 work the rest of the time I sleep
but I do have weekends, so my life is not dead, I still get my friendship time
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I like the song "Never Alone" by Barlow Girl it sucks that youtube keeps deleting the videos, I know it is steeling to listen off youtube, I just don't have the money for the CD yet.
Fay Da Way · Fri Apr 10, 2009 @ 05:24pm · 0 Comments |
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