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Guys aren't worth the pain that I go through. Though I probably only go through this pain because I allow myself to be pulled along, to believe in chances that'll never happen. Am I pathetic? Probably. Even if no one says it outright, it shows in the looks they give me and the hints they drop. I can't help the way I feel... wait, I probably can. If I just give up on him, I might be happy, cause then I won't always feel pain when he forgets to call me, which seems to happen more often then not.
You're prpbably thinking that I'm some self-centered witch who wants the world to stop for me because some guy isn't bowing down at my feet and showering me with affection/attention. Well, you're wrong. Ask my friends and they'll tell you I'm not. As for the part about the guy, well, I don't want him to bow at my feet, but I would like him to acknowledge me more often. And I'd like him to put more effort into us hanging out, so I don't feel like I'm pushing myself, and my friendship, on him. Am I pathetic? Absolutley.
Do I want pity, no, because I don't expect it. Not from my friends, and not from my family. All of them will say pretty much the same thing, that they tried to tell me to get over him, that I should've given up after everything. But he gave me hope. That, or I was reading too much into simple things, which is very likely.
I sound like a rambling idiot, and at a quarter to midnight, that wouldn't surprise me. But I have to know. I want someone to be able to tell me where we stand, though I'm sure the only person that can is the guy who always forgets that he says he'll call.

Am I pathetic? Positively so.