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PostPosted: Wed Apr 06, 2016 5:00 pm


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PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:13 am


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PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:16 am


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April 6th, 2016 - Hargitt's quest was accepted!
PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:21 am


Hargitt


Stage: Prentice --> Archer
Race: Wind
Gender: Male
Description: His skin is a darker hue, a combination of a naturally darkened hide as well as hours spent working outdoors. This only serves as a contrast to Hargitt's very light blonde hair that falls past his shoulders in wild, wavy curls. (It isn't unlikely to see a twig or two stuck in that wild mane). His eye's are also a lighter hue, and usually hold some sort of challenge within them.

Physically he's a big, thick, burly guy. He'll be a veritable bear once he's grown. His crystals range from large spikes to smaller, smoother accent crystals on his shoulders, forearms, outer thighs and calves. Hargitt has a few scars here and there; nothing major, just little nicks that refused to heal properly.

Clothing: From the waist and below of this outfit (one on the right; height of boot/boot style is CC) with the rest pulled from inspirations from all three. Colors should be simple browns / tans / ivories and blacks. Patches, torn cloth, etc. are fine.

Accessories: A simple, leather corded necklace with an animal jaw hanging from it. Beyond that Hargitt isn't much into the flashy stuff; it just gets in the way.

Romantic Status: Single (plotted for the future)
Partner: N/A

3 Base Traits: Introverted, Stoic, Artistic
Personality:

--->Stoic
Being part of a very large, very opinionated family has forced Hargitt to practice patience lest he lose his mind. Since he usually only responds in grunts and clipped words most assume he's this walking, mountain of danger. Where most strangers keep their distance because of this, the simplicity of his speech has helped him more than once in wrangling his little brothers. Where as his eldest brother was always prone to walking away in frustration from the chaos that comes from a large gathering of young boys, Hargitt simply endures. He subtly coaxes them into either obeying or taking their ruckus outside. Because of this, despite his rather imposing demeanor, he's become a sort of favorite among his brothers. They will often come to him when a problem arises and his parents don't have the time to help.

He's become accustomed to placing the needs of the family above his own. Hargitt will very rarely, if ever, complain; he simply endures. As one of the eldest he knows it's his duty to see to the protection of his brothers and if that means working twice as hard to bring in food, or going straight to work with the capramel after a long hunt then so be it.

Most of the time his brothers have to work hard to coax any sort of personal 'desire' out of him, since he either never says it or simply goes off to do what he wants without telling anyone.

--->Artistic
Often times when things are stressful, or if he's been called out on a particularly long hunt, Hargitt will bring his well worn sketch book with him. It's a secret hobby of his; one that only his youngest brother, Tivis, knows about; mostly because the boy is attached to his hip and it was impossible to hide. It helps to relieve not only boredom, but sketching helps him to work through bouts of melancholy that threaten to consume him when out with his Uncle.

There isn't one particular thing that Hargitt enjoys drawing most. Scenery, portraits, dreams, etc.; it's all fodder for his work. Of course there are times when he cannot draw (either due to lack of materials, an injury, etc.) and those are the worst. He becomes visibly twitchy; as if at that one moment all of his inspiration has come upon him like an itched that has to be scratched at that very moment.

Hargitt both finds relaxation and a sense of defensive embarrassment from his sketches. This skill isn't a particularly useful one to his survival, so most days he hates that he even does it at all since he could be spending that time doing something productive. However, like any true addict, he can't seem to kick the habit.

--->Introverted
Due to his childhood in a small Sauti settlement Hargitt has developed a highly reflective and reserved personality. It isn't that he dislikes the company of others; in all actuality, he loves it, but only in small doses. Larger numbers, even being around his entire family for long stretches of time tends to exhaust him.

Hargitt takes pleasure in solitary activities such as hunting, and tracking Regular interactions with trusted souls are seen as enjoyable to him, though trust is hard earned with him. It's an issue of significance, and finding someone who understands his need for 'personal space' without being offended is hard to find.

At the end of the day Hargitt just isn't the most exuberant soul. He prefers to observe situations before participating, often dwelling on what he's should say for far longer than he should. Because of this his welcoming personality is often hid behind a socially awkward, if not outright gruff, shell that is often overwhelmed by the sheer amount of bodies around him. He simply doesn't understand how to mingle like everyone else, and finds the act of trying horribly stressful.

Facts
-His sense of smell is so keen that it rules his life. While it's a useful skill when on the hunt, it also dampens his interactions with others. If they don't smell 'right' to him he'll generally avoid them
-Hates having his hair / head touched. Hargitt only brushes his hair when absolutely necessary, and will harm anyone who tries to touch his hair. Years of abuse under his Uncle has conditioned him to fear anyone who comes that close, and to strike out first.

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PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:22 am


History




Anora and Delwyn Farys were a match made by the Gods themselves.

The pair had been close as friends in the settlement of Tind, and through the years a romantic relationship was formed. Anora, who had always been an opinionated sort, told Delwyn from the start that if he wanted to marry her he had better give her a daughter. What man wouldn't make that kind of promise to wed the woman of his dreams? It seemed a small price to pay, since he already planned on a big family with Anora. Surely somewhere along the line a girl would come into the mix.

Years came and went. The pair spent their time raising capramel to sell, watching with baited breath as their family expanded. When their first child was born, a son, both were ecstatic. Anora didn't have her girl yet, but this was only the first of many children she wished to have, so surely one day her time would come. One son turned to two, then three, four, five...after nine sons Anora seemingly gave up all hope on having a daughter. The Gods had obviously thought to bless them in other ways, and while Anora was a little disappointed, she still deeply loved her sons.

Growing up as the third son of nine proved challenging, though rewarding, for Hargitt. His parents spared as much time as they could for him while also trying to balance the responsibilities of work and his brothers. There was a balance to be found in this; with so many brothers and a herd of capramel to tend to Hargitt never had time to feel lonely. He was always working on something whether that be chores, or bothering one of his brothers.

As he grew it became obvious that tending to capramel wasn't going to be enough to occupy Hargitt's mind. He was restless; constantly moving, shifting, pressing the boundaries of his parents laws. Anora's solution was to have him train under her brother, Yuuria, to learn bow hunting. Delwyn was less certain this would work. The older boys had spent some time with Yuuria as well, but the man's harsh personality hadn't endeared him to the boys. He worried what sort of influence this would have over their already quiet son, but Anora wouldn't be swayed. This was how it was going to be, whether Hargitt or his father liked it or not.

Yuuria was less than pleased to be saddled with another of his sister's brats. He valued his time away from his pushy family which instantly put him in the mind to dislike Hargitt before ever truly getting to know the boy. Hargitt's first few months with Yuuria were a flurry of trials; the man ran him hard, shoving and grinding Hargitt until the energetic youth became a stable hunter. At first Hargitt hated his mother for sending him to Yuuria. The man would often deny Hargitt meals, and punish him by yanking fist fulls of hair so hard he felt as if his scalp would come off should he make the slightest mistake. At first he tried to tell his mother about it, but she told him of course Yuuria had to be rough; how else was he going to learn? She didn't believe her son's tales about the level to which Yuuria took his authority and the already quiet boy clammed up entirely about what truly happened on his trips. He blamed it on his own inability to rise to Yuuria's challenges, and knew that his mother likely had too much to worry about already without fussing over a weak son. So, Hargitt tried twice as hard and suffered through those years on his own.

Hargitt had never contemplated leaving Tind before that point. Of course he had seen nomads passing through, but he had just assumed he would stay in their little settlement like his parents for the rest of his years. Yuuria changed all of that. His uncle explained that in order to hunt effectively you had to track your prey, and sometimes that meant being gone for weeks. As Hargitt grew his relationship with Yuuria had changed to the point that while the older man now tolerated his nephew's presence, the younger man couldn't stand him. Thoughts of extended trips drifted to just leaving the older man all together to fend for himself, but Hargitt could never do it. Many a night he had lain awake wondering what it would be like to just leave, though each morning he would inevitably fall into the same routine as yesterday. As much as he detested his Uncle, Hargitt loved his family dearly and ditching the man would inevitably bring on so much flack from his family that going home would be just as rough as staying out in the wilderness with Yuuria.

So, Hargitt grew, and boy did he grow. Anora's family was chocked full of large, burly men that put her husband to shame. His elder brothers had taken more after their father in stature, while Hargitt seemed to be a pseudo clone of his mother. He became tall, much taller than other boys his age, quiet and imposing. Because of his silent nature and the gravel like quality of his voice the village teens avoided him entirely. Not that Hargitt would have known what to do with friends if he'd had them; beyond his brothers he'd spent little to no time around others his age, and those social skills most children developed early on with their peers just weren't there.

By his seventeenth birthday Hargitt will have spent little to no time in Tind at all, without much changing as he ages. Most of his interactions are with fellow hunting parties, whose conversations are often clipped and factual. He knows there are now marital issue at home, mostly concerning rumors about his mother and a lover she's taken (one she vehemently denies and his father has yet to get to the bottom of).
PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:32 am


Relationships


Anora / Mother : Stern woman, easily frustrated, go getter
Delwyn / Father: Hen pecked, patient, views his wife's temper as sexy
Yuuria / Maternal Uncle: Jerk
Merritt / Brother: Four years older (Excitable, easily frustrated, tempered and stubborn)
Silas / Brother: - Three years older (Joker, always smiling, left home young)
Tivis / Brother- Twelve years younger (Youngest; generally sleeps next to Hargitt when he's home)

(With the addition of too many brothers to list)

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PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:33 am


Familiars
PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:34 am


RP Log


Stage 2

[Sauti] Misfire - Faamy
[Sauti] A Convenient Affair - Jakkoa
[Sauti] Stardust and Beaten Paths - Jakkoa
[Sauti] No Touchy - Ergon
[Sauti] We Meet Again - Faamy
[Sauti/WE] Creepy Crawlers - Jakkoa
[Sauti] What the Doctor Ordered - Jakkoa

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PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:35 am


Battle Log


Stage 2
[Sauti] Rho 2
[Sauti] Rho 1
[Sauti] Tryston
[Sauti] Ergon
PostPosted: Thu Apr 07, 2016 11:36 am


Art

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PostPosted: Fri Apr 08, 2016 11:29 am


Growth Solo Necessary for Stage 2 Questing


Quote:
Rumors have been flying left and right about his mother's 'lover'; all of which she claims are false! Hargitt never truly put much stock into them, believing his mother above all else, until he finds her with another man!

The situation will turn morally dicey once she sees her son and begs him not to tell anyone. She just wants a daughter so bad, and it's obvious that Hargitt's father won't be any help. His own beliefs place fidelity and honesty with your partner on the highest shelf, making his mother's actions a betrayal of the worst sort to his father. The thing of it is, this is his mother, so what will he do? What is the "right" thing? Rat her out to his father, possibly ruining his family forever? Or letting her get by with it just to see to her happiness and hope for the best?


Hargitt's return home hadn't been as gloriously relaxing as he had hoped it would be. After spending more than a month in the wilderness with his Uncle the pair had returned to a home over run with little boys scrambling to catch a baby Kinfa. There had been a moment where all he could do was stand in the doorway, watching this little fat blue avian bounce from one boy to the next, knocking over every vase, pot, and glass in it's wake. The children seemed too happy to notice, and Yuuria seemed much to amused by the sight to even think about stepping in.

"STOP."
Hargitt's bellow silenced the house immediately. Four of his youngest brothers turned to look at him, not in fear, but in questioning. They knew him enough not to fear his deep voice, rather to respect it and listen when he told them to. At least for a time.

He set his things down by the entryway, and strode into the room, heavy footfalls thudding against the hard packed floor. When he reached Tivis' side Hargitt merely held his hand out for the avian in his arms, and his baby brother refused. If anything he gripped the bird tighter, causing it to let out a little squawk while the boy pouted. "He's my fwiend, we get ta keep him, Papa said so."

"I'm not taking him away, I'm putting him outside. No animals in the house, Tivis." As if the boys needed reminding of why that rule existed, he gestured to the mess with a way of his hand. This time when he reached for the kinfa he bent at the knee, and scooped his youngest brother up with it. "Clean this up before I get back." His tone broached no argument, though more than one of the younger boys groaned. They would do it, he was sure about that, but he didn't doubt that they wouldn't curse his name while doing so.

"I shouldn't be surprised that you're so soft with them." Yuuria clucked. His nephew paid him little mind as he moved past him, all but pushing the other man out of the doorway so that his broader shoulders could squeeze by. The older man watched with thinly veiled disgust as Hargitt ruffled his baby brother's hair, all the while the little boy never stop cooing at his little feathered friend. "Your father is a fool for bringing that here. Unless he plans on eating it there's no purpose for a kinfa on a-"

"No one's going to eat Bippy!" Tivis shrieked. He laid his head over on Bippy's, which the bird seemed content enough with. "He's my fwiend and...he's gonna be okay, right, Har?"

"Yes, he is." Hargitt gave his Uncle a stern look, and purposefully walked away from the pissy man. It was one thing for the old jerk to take his frustrations out on his older nephews, even his brother in law, but Tivis was still much too young for any of that. Hargitt wanted to shield his brother from that kind of hate for as long as he could; and if that meant letting him keep a completely useless pet, then what was the harm in it?

Once they were out of Yuuria's earshot, Hargitt asked, "Where are mother and father?"

"Papa's with Riri, she's havin' her baby today, and Mama...I don't really know where Mama is. I think she said she was going to check on the water." While he could easily imagine his father spending all day tending to the laboring herd, what he could picture was his mother being absent for it. It didn't seem like her at all to avoid that kind of thing in favor of checking their water supplies. Normally she would send one of the boys to do that sort of thing.

Hargitt was reminded that once again, she was indeed pregnant, and it was a little cooler near the fresh spring. Perhaps his mother was feeling over worked, and needed a break? That thought concerned him. It wouldn't do for her to stress herself into an early labor. "Tivis, go find papa."

"Okay!" The little boy bounced up on his toes when his big brother sat him onto the ground, and he raced off, flitting over the harsh landscape until he disappeared into the family capramel herd. A lasting image was of his sandy curls bouncing this way and that framed by Bippy's wings as the little bird attempted to fly at his side. Whether or not he would actually help their father was up in the air, but Hargitt didn't want the little one around if his mother truly was ailing.

The last thing the little one needed to see was his mother in pain.

Hargitt walked across the little plot of land his family called home, and continued on down in to a little gorge where a hidden spring resided. They kept it fenced off, only allowing the capramel to drink from the larger water source so that this one could remain pure for the settlements earthling residents. For the most part only his family used it, so it wasn't likely to have many visitors at this time of day, if at all. That concerned him. If she had gone to the larger pool then someone might have been there to help her, but out here...

The area was mostly surrounded in large, jagged rocks so even though he was relatively close now Hargitt couldn't see a thing. The closer he came, however, the more he could hear. Groaning...grunting...Was she injured? Hargitt started moving a little faster, double timing it when he heard his mother scream. Fully panicked now he raced around the rocks, pushing through the smaller spaces as quickly as he could to get to her side...

...and immediately he wished he hadn't.

His mother was lying on her back with her skirt pushed up above her knees, with a strange man grasping her thigh. With the way she was pressing herself against him it was obvious that something more involved than kissing was on it's way.

Stranger still was the fact that not only was his mother obviously cheating on his father, proving the rumors to be true, but the stranger was half her age and matorian! She broke away from the kiss to look into his eyes, but the man was already turning to see what the disturbance was about. When his gaze caught Hargitt's, a flash of horror bounced between the two.

The man scrambled away from Anora, bouncing up to his feet so fast he nearly fell onto his rump. He barely had time to sputter out a half-baked apology before sprinting out of the valley behind Hargitt. The younger man stepped to the side, allowing him to get out of the way, and vaguely he thought about snatching him by the collar. Maybe he should have demanded answers, but that man...he wasn't the one Hargitt felt a growing anger for but rather the woman pulling herself together on the ground.

"Ha-Hargitt, what are you- Son, it's not what it looks like."

"Then tell me what I saw, mother, and pray that my eyes have deceived me." His tone was clipped and cool; showing very little of the betrayal in his soul. How could she do that to father? After all the man had put up with through the years just to make her happy....this was how she repayed him? It was an image he wouldn't likely burn out of his brain any time soon, so he doubted very little that there would be any way for the woman to talk her way out of this one.

Anora took her sweet time standing up, and Hargitt knew he should have helped her. No matter what she had done she was still expecting, albeit in the early stages, and likely found moving difficult. Once she was on her feet, however, and reaching for him any feeling of guilt passed away from him. He stepped back, just out of her reach, and waited for her to lower her arms before settling into a solid stance.

His mother sighed, and lowered her gaze. "I know that this...I know what you must think of me, but Hargitt, your father just can't give me what I want. I love him, you know that, and I wouldn't have done this if I didn't think it could help." The way she spoke seemed so sincere, but Hargitt knew she was a practiced liar. Anora often outsmarted his father to get what she wanted, so why wouldn't she try that same tactic here?

"How is this helping?"


"There was a spell, a little potion I got from a traveling mage, that said I could take the fertility of one man and give it to another. That's the only reason I did what I did, son; so I could pass it onto your father and we could finally have our daughter."

Hargitt snorted. "You have nine sons and are currently expecting. I fail to see the need for fertility help."

"No no, it's a way to ensure that the baby is a girl. The magic only works once I'm expecting, but it has to be early on." If she expected Hargitt to believe such a fabricated lie then Anora truly was grasping at hairs. Her voice shook with the effort needed to keep up such a charade. Why lie? He had seen her in the act, so it wasn't as if he was going to suddenly forget what had transpired here. "Hargitt, you can't tell your father; it would break him. This was just a one time thing...it won't ever happen again."

Hargitt kept his mouth in a firm, expressionless line. So long as he could make her believe that he was upset then he could think; which wasn't hard to do, considering how upset her really was. She wanted him to keep up this lie? Marriage was a commitment of the heart and soul, a binding in front of the Gods themselves, and she'd spoiled it. Yet, he knew that it would devastate his father if he were to say anything, and likely the family would fizzle apart. Mother would be on her own, as the land belong to father's family, with a fatherless child to tend for. As much as he wanted to yell at her for the selfishness of this entire situation he couldn't just abandon his own mother. Nor could he expose an innocent baby to that kind of life.

The uncertainty of his choice must have shown on his face, or the silence was simply too much for her to stand. Anora moved closer, reaching for his hands again and this time Hargitt allowed it. "You're such a strong boy, Hargitt; we raised a good son, and I know that whatever you decide to do will be the right choice."

He looked down at their interlocked hands, and moved back up to her face. The "right" thing was trapped in a moral gray area that didn't have a clear cut decision for him. His insides twisted and knotted, rumbling with the knowledge that whatever he did would impact his family forever.

"Do you swear to the Gods that from this moment forward you will be faithful?"

"Yes, yes, of course, I swear it."

Hargitt furrowed his brow, and finally released a pent up sigh. There was nothing more he could do. Father couldn't know about it, not while his children were so young and needed a stable family. He had no choice but to believe that his mother would stick true to her oath, even if he knew that she likely wouldn't. All he could hope for was that the babe in her womb was as pure as any of his brothers, and not a hybrid.

"I won't tell him." When she began to smile, he interjected, "but neither will I continue to lie for you if you keep this up. This has to be the last time, mother; no more."

"I wouldn't expect anything less, Hargitt."

And that was that. He had no other choice now than to play it off as helping his mother return back to their homestead after having caught her 'feeling ill'. His father would believe it, since his son wouldn't have lied, and no doubt Hargitt would get very little sleep that night. He was already feeling ill at ease, but there was simply no changing it now, not after all that.

Whatever it took to keep the family together, right?

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PostPosted: Sun May 28, 2017 8:34 pm


Stage Two Solo One


By the light of a tallow candle a man worked long into the night. He stayed on the edge of the tent, humped up with his knees raised in just a manner so that the light wouldn't disturb the tent's other occupant.

In one hand was posed a sketchbook; tattered and stained, it had been through it's fair share of travels. Hargitt held it tenderly, however, as if it were as precious as any gem. The vague shape of a face began to take shake, falling in line with the image of a sleeping figure. Occasionally he would look up, squinting through the dark to memorize the features that weren't burned into his brain. He outlined a slim build; lithe, corded with muscle from years of traveling through Sauti's rocky landscape. Long, pointed ears with a few strands of golden hair falling over them, pooling on the fur that the man slept upon.

Hargitt wasn't sure when he'd begun sketching Jakkoa, or why, really. He should be sleeping; especially after he'd just narrowly escaped the effects of a keldari. However, after sleeping through much of the day his body was restless, and so, he found himself curving a piece of charcoal across the page, forming a pair of lips he could still envision kissing.

They were softened in sleep, without any of the angry turns, but also lacking in passion. When Hargitt began to add his crystals he found himself wondering why he hadn't simply left the tent once he'd woken up. He could have gone back to his palette outside at any time, but...if he were being truthful he didn't want to.

He wanted to stay and sketch. To form some sort of lasting image so that once all of this was over he could remember. He never noticed when his hand began to cramp, nor did he pay much attention to the way his burned the longer he strained them; he wanted to finish this, no matter what, before going back to sleep.

And with that determination in mind he set about working through the night.

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PostPosted: Tue Jun 06, 2017 5:58 pm


Stage Two Growth Solo


[Hargitt has never seen himself as anything other than a tool for the betterment of his family. He's never given much thought as to the value of his life, or as to why he is ready to lay his life on the line without fear of death.

After a run in with a venomous keldari Hargitt has begun to think about it all. Self sacrifice solves nothing; he would leave behind the man he's starting to fall in love with and that bothers him more than anything. He's realizing he wants to live for himself, and for Hargitt that's a big deal]

While Hargitt had been on the move for the better part of a day he never moved too far away from camp. His travels kept him in a circular motion with their little spot in the center. Ever since the incident with the keldari, the same one that had kept him laid up, Hargitt hadn't wanted to go too far on his hunts. Not out of fear for himself, but rather, out of a worry of others sneaking in and attacking Jakkoa while he was away.

Of course most of the time Jakkoa was gone as well, doing his own work, but it bothered Hargitt all the same. He had taken to going through their supplies every time he returned; unearthing each stone, checking through their bedding, shuffling fire wood...It made him out as a paranoid man, and honestly, he was. What it had done to him was so fast that Hargitt was still mentally getting over the whole thing. He had only survived because Jakkoa had acted fast, but what if the hybrid were the one to be attacked instead?

Sauti was an expansive and mountainous region that often left much to be desired in the way of accessible medical care. The settlements held their own healers, and often times many nomadic tribes had their own version of one, but some chose not to. The likelihood of seeing one in their time of need, however, was so slim that it made Hargitt rethink his entire outlook as a 'bodyguard'.

Hargitt thought on that night as he slipped down a stoney crag, jumping at the last moment to cross a small pool of water. He bent, falling down on one knee to test the clarity of the water before filling his waterskin. That night, when the keldari had struck, he had run straight into the tent without any regard for his own life. His main concern had been for Jakkoa, and while that was still beyond important, a staunch realization was making it's way into his minds eye.

When had he come to value his own life so little? At what point in his years had be begun to see himself as disposable; something easily replaced and therefore easily sacrificed?

It wasn't as if it were a new concept. Hargitt had felt that way for the vast majority of his life, leaving him to wonder at what age he had begun to see it as 'normal'. According to Jakkoa it was the farthest from normal he could possibly get. Starving himself for the betterment of others proved nothing, which went against everything Hargitt had been taught and that...that left him bending to remove his boots, dipping his toes into the water to think for a while.

His earliest memories were of being alone with his mother, being scolded for taking more snacks than he needed. What about your little brothers? They're younger than you; they need it more. He had been eight years old at the time, still growing, still in need, but not to Anora. Once a Farys boy began to lose the baby fat around his face he was a 'man' in her eyes, and thus, subject to the harshness of the world. At the time it had been nothing more than life for Hargitt; going to bed hungry, silently angry when his baby brothers would crawl into bed with a full stomach and a happy face. Voicing his opinions did nothing; it got him nowhere to complain so he would lie awake for hours dreaming of the day when they could afford to sell a little more of the herd, or at the very least, kill a few more of the capramel to cook.

When he started traveling with Yuuria things had gone from tolerable to awful, though he didn't realize how bad until Jakkoa had bluntly pointed it out. At the time Hargitt had seen nothing wrong with foregoing meals while he was unable to hunt; it seemed stupid to waste time and resources cooking for two when one wasn't even able to get up. Now...now he wondered just how warped he really was. If he didn't have the strength to get up, from lack of nutrients rather than his actual wounds, what use would he have been to Jakkoa? What if his wounds healed and he left to hunt, then passed out, exposed for all predators to find?

It bothered him how little he actually cared about his own death. Leaving this world hadn't been as scary as it should have been at fourteen, let alone in his twenties, but leaving Jakkoa alone, to find his corpse...that bothered him. He had always lived out of a sense of obligation to his family, the much needed outside help to hunt while they farmed, without every really wanting to live at all. Now he wanted to. He enjoyed the sunrise so much more when there wasn't a boot kicking his ribs, reminding him that it was time to get up and move. Waking up fully rested, free of pain or fear of retribution, was an addictive thing. Hargitt found himself eager to see the world that Jakkoa was providing and to just see Jakkoa.

Sacrificing himself to protect Jakkoa was an idiotic move. He didn't regret charging into the tent when he did, but he did regret being a stubborn a** about eating. It would take time to get over those thoughts, to see himself as something worth keeping around, but so long as there was someone who cared enough to push him he would try. He wanted to stop and take the time to re-hydrate himself, to rest, before going back so that he wouldn't be exhausted if there was work to do. It was such a simple thing that he had taken for granted so many times in the past, and while he wasn't ready to change completely, Hargitt would try. For Jakkoa, he would try.
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