Maxine stood up and moved away from him. "You don't care, honestly, i don't care even if you did care, you know you can't just make it out that i'm off my bloody rocker one tick and the next want to invade my head and know all my secrets! I don't know what school they send you little blood sucking boys to, but i can promise you that it's not one that has any Marriott when dealing with the human race! Further more, thank you for saving me but i'm sure we're done here, so how 'bout rather then making me feel two inches tall cause i know what i saw and i'm the only one i can ever trust on that. You just leave me the bloody hell a lone to do whatever i want. For god shakes i've been coming here since i was seven! Never before have i ever seen your smug self. Why on the night when my heart finally breaks does your horrid, cruel, bitter, jerk, of a self have to be here! Isn't my own misery enough to get me by, I'm pretty sure i was doing good enough by myself, i know how to ruin my own life thanks!"
Maxine's body was in full fledged convolutions her eyes shut tight as her voiced raised more, she thanked the gods that no one could hear her screams as her break down hit her. That was one of the reasons she loved the sanctuary this place was. She could do whatever she wanted and no one could ever say anything about it. This was her place, the place for heart ache,for dreams, and her lake to share her pain with. Slowly she fell to her knees the tears still fresh in her eyes as she was loosing her strength it'd been along day, not a one could blame her for this, after all, she was only human, but that was okay with her. Max gave up on trying to hide the tears, no way would that happen, she couldn't hide the sorrow her soul always kept so bundled up, not anymore, it had reached its maximum. Once on her knees she stayed like that looking up into the moon, crying, she was silent, hardly breathing, the tears just kept rolling down her cheeks. Maxine wasn't even really sure if she had emotions left in her body besides sadness. Happy... what was happy, something long ago, that's all she knew. Jacob had betrayed her, he'd left her alone here in the middle of no where, she didn't care what he'd said anymore, anything he'd spoken must have been a lie, if he could break her heart with out even knowing it, then she was a mere mortal to his invincibly of knowledge.
The moon was reflecting into Maxine's eyes now, her body was quivering, her heart had snapped and she wished that she could have been dead so it wouldn't have hurt. Jacob had been the reason she kept living through all her parents crap, the reason she'd kept fighting to do her best. Jacob had been her star-shined night in the middle of the blackness. Once upon a time Jacob had hopes for them, her head was playing like a matinee movie, cheep and horrible to remember. Everything was set to the tune of California-Metro Station.
Their first kiss was in mid June the cherry blossoms were holding onto the tree and it was slightly windy, she felt his breath on her lips so sweet, her parents had been fighting and Maxine fled, Jacob as always was open. They sat out on his roof gazing out at the stars for a long moment, they'd almost kissed and her heart was beating fast, then all of a sudden his lips were to hers, she almost started to struggle but realized what was going on and quickly held her hand to the back of his head, her lips playing with his. It had been so sweet, so needed, so perfect...
What do you say we leave for California
If we drive all night we can make it by the morning
And no one has to know if we decide to go
What do you say we leave for California
The first time she'd driven a car, he'd been there in the seat beside her. Since Jacob was two years older then her, he'd driven her pretty much everywhere Maxine's hair was blue by then, he was leaving for college in the fall, they had one perfect summer together before he'd leave. Maxine had two months and five days before he'd tell her they should just be friends. Five seconds until she turned on the ignition. Everything was combusting in her life. She was in love and to her he felt the same. As the key turned in his slightly beat up car it roared to life and Maxine jumped back in her seat, her eyes wide with fear, slowly Jacob had put his rather large hand on her thigh and she nodded putting the car into drive. They were up in the mountains in a clearing, this was her initial practice. Three minutes until she'd almost kill them both, eight until they'd wake up after the crash, nine until they'd start laughing, twenty until they'd move out of the tin can car. Thirty until they'd stop hugging. A full night before they'd leave the area and head back to humanity. What seemed like forever lost in each others eyes.
If I strum chords, would you sing a song with me
If I leave town would you leave along with me
And we can fly away to outer space
Or we can find a way to leave this place
Maxine's heart skipped a beat, she'd known now why he'd broken up with her, on their third year anniversary he'd asked her where she'd seen herself in five years, she responded by starting college at some big, most likely expensive place. That wasn't what he'd wanted to hear, he wanted her to be his forever, locked away in her arms, the house wife, with a white picket fence and three little blond children out in the yard throwing balls at each other. Suddenly she understood, he'd hoped she had changed, though she hadn't, nor would she ever change. Max was stuck the way she was for better or for worse til the day she died. Though she loved dancing after she'd grown to old she wanted to become a pediatric oncologist, though she never wanted kids of her own, she did want to help them. In truth Maxine was to terrified of the genes that she had gotten from her parents and she figured that their mutated and tampered genetics should never be passed on past her. She would die with them, with out having children, that would be her story.
Maxine was still her stasis from her mind, though the tears got worse, she had her answers five times over that night, why he'd left, if he still knew her, everything. None of it was what she wanted to hear, it was in fact her fault that Jacob had left, because she couldn't conform and be tamed it wasn't in her genetics. The tears started to crush out of her eyes much quicker now as she gazed up at the moon, they brushed down her throat and even whetted the side of her hoodie. Slowly she rose from her knees, her feet instantly going up into the dancers pose in the sand with no shoes on. Maxine did a few simple spins, her mind blank, just the simple song rushing through it. "What do you say we leave for California." After she sang that she fell down her mind broken, her body just as defeated she was curled into the fetal position as she cried, her wrists under her face, keeping it from the harsh sand.