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to be like this at times
lonely
looking for something to do, trying to search for oportunities

I feel so empty most of the time... maybe cause i spend a lot of time alone
its not fair
this feelings
i really wish to keep moving forward
but sometimes i feel like i cant
because i am all by myself and i can do it all

i really wish i could spend more time with you
but here i find myself trying to
but not being able to
you have your life
and you have the things you want to do
i would feel very bad asking you not to do them just cause i want to do something withyou
i feel like such a fool
i really do
i wait like an idiot
and sometimes i cant get close enougth to you

i think a lot
way too much
in how to make you happy
but sometimes i feel that your happiness is something i cannot give you
sometimes i want to bew that wich you want
but i know deep inside that i will be lying to myself and to you cause i am not like that
i dont want you disapointed in me
but i wounder
what did you saw in me when you wanted me
was it what i was ?
or what you wanted to make of me ?