Okay, well, you remember how I made an entry before about that stuck up guy who I said I pretty much hated? Well...I think I kinda like him...
I'm such a loser.
It's not that he's rich or anything.
But part of it I think is because he has so much confidence...all the confidence I lack. And he knows so many big words that sounds really cool and he's pretty funny too, even when he's not really trying to be. His hair isn't all that great, but it does look pretty cool.
Part of the survey thing he had said: "Have you Been in Love: Love is for tree-huggers and churchgoers" That makes me kinda sad...but then again, most rich people think like that.
Another part of it said: "Do you want to get Married: Maybe a few times" Even if I was able to marry him, I'd probably be gone pretty fast. But even currently I'd probably have no chance at all and he probably wouldn't even ever have any time for a girlfriend. Although if I did date him and he didn't have a lot of time for me, I probably wouldn't mind because I could be online. But then again, if I had to buy him a gift for a holiday or something, I'd have no clue what to buy and if anything, it'd probably be expensive or he would already have everything he wants.
Another part of the survey thing: "Do you think you are Attractive: What?s more attractive than money? --I definately agree that money's more attractive than you. " Oh god...I sound so shallow..... This al;so pretty much shows that even if I dated him, he'd love his money the best. But who could blame him? Everyone else would be the same if they were rich.
And he plays piano, how awesome is that? I love classical music, but I also love metal , techno and j-rock and all of that would probably give him a headache.
"In the past month have you gone on a Date: No --Probably cause you're so uptight and no one can understand what you're ******** saying! Go back to private schooling with all the other rich, uptight assholes. That's where you belong! Don't know why your at SHS where all the idiots are! " Wow....I can't beleive I really said that....
"How do you want to Die: Drowning in my own money --Oh, I can help you out there. I'll bring the kinves and you just float around a bit until I surpirise attack you. " Hah, after re-reading that, I thought I felt bad for saying that, but actually I laughed...
"I attend Streamwood high. I would have gone to South Elgin, but I wanted to find some people that actually can understand what I say. Unfortunately, these people are just as stupid, and I'm starting to miss the parasites. " I think he should just go to South Elgin...thenI wouldn't be able to have a crushon him.
Oh, and at school today, we went to Hanover Countryside (an elementary school) and had a X-Mas party thing with the kids there. I was in a group with Erich. I was really nervous.
When we first got to class, everyone was standing around and talking to friends. then, we all had to take a survey. After 1st hour, the sophmores, juniors and seniors came in and Mr.Butterly (my English teacher) told us where each group should stand. There were a lot of people. They opened this curtain thing so both clases would be combined (English and Global Studies). My group was to stand up by the chalkboard in the English side. So I went up there and stood straight and was just blankly looking at the ground and ceiling. Erich came up and he was standing right by me and I started to get really nervous! After the groups were together, they sent us down to the auditorium and had us all sit in there pretty much wherever we wanted. I sat in the front section in th center. Erich was one row in front of me and to th far right of that center section. None of my friends even came and sat by me. I felt like a doll. No, not all pretty and what-not. But more like dead, unnoticed and undusted like no one noticed I was there. I sat alone there. We all were sitting for about 15-20 minutes. I sat there....staring at a small flashing light that I could see through the branches of a Christmas tree. I sat there letting my mind wander and I didn't feel myself blink at all. Finally the busses arrived and we were to get on them. I followed all the other freshman onto the bus and grabbed myself an empty spot near the front. Linda sat down by me. I really didn't mind, but I really don't like her. When we arrived at the school, we all got off of our busses. Linda accidentally dropped a can of her cookies. Usually I would have laughed, but instead I just kept a staight face and walked into the building. We first went into the cafeteria. I stood next to a table. Erich was a few feet in front of me, I saw him look at me (not sure if he really did, but that's what I thought) and then kinda walk in my direction. At first I thought he was going to come stand by me, but he stood by some of the other people in our group. When we were told to go to our assigned classrooms, I was walking kinda slow, so I didn't have to get too close to Erich and then worry about tripping and then it actually happening. When we got up to the classroom, we set all of our stuff down on a table near the back. I've never really been to any kind of party before that wasn't with family or close friends, so I wasn't really sure what to do. I just stood there like a dumbfounded maniken while everyone else set up. Even Erich was helping out and he's Jewish. I felt so stupid and useless. After everything was set up, we went down to the gym to watch a Cinderella play. I got into the gym and Erich was right behind me. I felt my legs get weak, but I kept walking and forced my legs to stay up and tried to keep them from wobbling so I wouldn't embarass myself. I sat down on the floor and sat up straight and trying my best to ignore that Erich had just sat down right next to me.The play was already going, I tried to refrain from laughing. It worked for the most part. I only smiled a bit during some scenes. After the play we all got up and walked back to the room. The class cme in and they started up the games. Erich and Faiza set up twister while everyone else played heads-up-7-up. I thought he looked so cute around all the little kids, trying his best to help out. Every once and a while he came and stood by the windows only a few feet away from me. Then they started to do a raffle. Erich sat on this small chair kinda close diagonal left in front of me. He looked really hot. I refused to get all squealy like a school girl, so I held it back. Then they played a Christmas version of Simon says.
After a while, the class went down to lunch and then all the high school kids went back to the busses. I sat near the front again but this time Linda didn't sit by me. At first, I had the seat all to mself. But there were a few guys that didn't have a seat and they were all trying to sit in the back. Peter ended up sitting by me. He's pretty hot. I have a thing for asian guys.
Well, I need to sleep, so I'll write later.
One more thing...I kinda think he likes me, but I'm really not sure. He says he doesn't like blondes (because of their personalities) and he likes blue eyes, and I'm opposite of what he'd like. But I can't help but feel that he likes me. It's probably becasue I want him to like me and so I'm having allusions or someting.
Poke`mon · Tue Dec 20, 2005 @ 07:23am · 0 Comments |