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It's been a while since I've written an entry.

I have a hard time finding someone I can open up to about anything. Well, that isn't entirely true, but I feel like I can only talk about certain things to some friends without freaking them out, and talk about other things to other friends without trying to sound stupid, and some just find little interest in what I want to entirely get off my chest which only manage to upset me a bit more.

Recently, I've had feelings of unfulfillment in my personal life and on an emotional level. I feel like I'm wound up finding so many bumps on my path, some of which can actually knock a dent into my self confidence, or render me off balance psychologically and/or emotionally. I'm trying my hardest to fling my burdens over my shoulder and bear with it while trying to be more optimistic and strong. But, I feel like I'm gradually becoming more sensitive about some things in life, and dulled out in other aspects of my life.

If someone asked me concisely as to why I may feel unfulfilled, I wouldn't know how to answer very well. It's just a feeling that comes to me. I don't know if it's triggered subconsciously by certain events of my life, or if I'm self analyzing my whole life and what I've become up to this point after going through something, or if I'm suffering from an anxiety disorder from all the stress and worries I deal with from time to time. It could be all of the above, but that still means that I have yet to find peace of mind.

I feel like my mind is all over the place, off into space and I can't find my own center of gravity. I'm finding myself easily being confused, more lost, and losing my sense of self.

Just like any other person who struggles with unsettling feelings of stress, depression, dealing with my own issues, and a slice of the world's cruel reality about life, I hope I get over it quick.

I need...I want...and I must find something...someone. I just want some fulfillment of some sort.