don't feel stupid, i wish i had found a thread like this before my man left. maybe this past week wouldn't have been so hard with a little love and support.
i started dating my boyfriend knowing he'd be leaving on the 17th, it was hard but he was worth it.
just know that you aren't being selfish, you aren't insisting that he stay or doing anything like that (unless you aren't saying something). he doesn't seem to realize how hard it is to be the one waiting, it can be just as hard as being the soldier going.
remember that not all marines are directly in harm's way, hundreds of marines come home safe and sound all the time, don't psych yourself out over something before it happens. yes, people die in the armed forced every day, but many many people also live and live a long time. it's hard, but you have to have faith.
the being alone is tough, very very tough, but it makes us military girlfriends stronger just like the military makes our men stronger. we have to be strong to support them just like they have to be strong to support our country.
it's ok to be sad, it's normal and it's healthy. trust me, my boyfriend left last tuesday and before today i hadn't eaten anything more substantial than a cup of soup because i was so upset i made myself sick. just don't let it become everything you think about. keep yourself busy, spend all the time you can with him and with your friends. if he's still setting up his contract, you should have a good bit of time left to really get used to the idea. it'll still be hard but you won't fall apart completely if you give yourself time to adjust and to prepare and plan.
if you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to message me. i know exactly what it's like to be the girl waiting for the man you love to leave. we've all been there, we all know how it feels. even when he's gone, don't forget that you aren't truly alone. us military SOs have to take care of each other right?
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(wow massive wall of text. sorry n_n;
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