Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 746 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 250 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 157 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 684 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2551 ]

[AudacityOnDrugs]

'Walked down this beaten path before. I know cause my feet have the scars to show.'

[Form Abattoir]

I don't wan Matt to have gotten me a "Christmas/Valentine's day" gift...
I'm terrified.
I don't want it to be anything major...
I just want everything to be okay especially if things get more complicated than they already are.

Sigh.

[Suicide Salvation]

My feet are disgusting. Playing soccer for 8 years really left it's mark.

[HormonalTeenager]

Someone at Acquire the Fire had this quote that said nobody wants to die.

I couldn't help but scoff at that.
Even in that moment, I wanted to die.

I noticed most of the day, I was begging God to take me.

It's sad when I can't even handle existing.

[Ambien Dreams]

How I run on 3 hours like this amazes me when I can't seem to function when I get enough sleep and I'm working my 10 hour shifts.
I've calmed down since my breakdown earlier. I keep so much inside and wait until the weekend, where I don't have to worry about co-workers seeing me break to breakdown.
And there's more s**t than I want to allow anyone to know. There's that guilt of knowing everyone else has legit problems too and so it's selfish of me to go to anyone about it.

And now? I don't know. I just feel so numb. Maybe that's my low.

[comme des enfants]

I might actually be able to get nine hours of sleep if I get ready now.

'Night DLS.

[AshesToRoses]

He said he wanted me to try to get some sleep but I'm not sure if I can right now. I should just go read a book and ease my mind for a little bit..

[AudacityOnDrugs]

Infatuation, lead to a 2.5 year relationship.

Such a waste of my time.

[shiny spoink]

i need to get hungry already emotion_donotwant

i want to eat dinner

[AshesToRoses]

I need a texting buddy. Know any takers? >.>;; Of course not.

[waranaide]

I was happy they gave me their number.
But then I realized they're going back in May so I really don't think I could do anything.

[melohime]

Yes, I can say with confidence that I'm much better off without her now.
She was proving to be a distraction and took up too much of my attention. I can direct it now on school work and sorting myself out.
Sorry, S. There's no chance of you ever coming back into my life. I'm much better off this way.

[what the chicken]

It's come to that point in the evening where I want to pull on my face and groan pitifully about wanting to get back in touch with people...
But I know that's only going to keep me awake and I can't have that... even if I'm not doing a damned thing, tomorrow.

[Leisurely]

i'm sorry but
i'm over here having a mental breakdown
and you continue to sit there and tell me it's all my fault and that i do nothing right
that is like the last ******** thing i wanna hear at the moment
the door is that way