LoveForChii
I just took a shower and I need to clean my room. hahahaha. ^^
I'm feeling better lately. I dropped a day at work from 4 to three. I've been seeing a councilor to help with the stress and sadness. I'm trying to work on my relationship with my husband (when I got busy, myself and my relationship was what was being put last.) I read this article online where it said that most people think the beginnins is the easiest part of a relationship because you don't have to try. But the truth is, during that time, 90% of the relationship is nurturing (doing stuff for the other person, trying to make them happy, etc), 10% maintenance (day to day stuff), but as time goes on, that flips to 10% nurturing and 90% maintenance. And that's kinda where we've been at. So I'm trying to figure out how to change that. ^^
Just being aware of that helps a lot. Since our available times dont really line up it's easy to see how we slipped into maintenance mode.
Wow, it's crazy how that happens, huh? My friend right now is in total love with her boyfriend and often teases him about how they should be married and such. But....to me, I'm like... :/ Like, I want to support her, and I do because they are such a cute couple, but I also know how relationships go and how messy they can become. Like, she keeps talking about all the good things about him, how he wears everything she buys and how he wants to marry her and their future together. But he also doesn't really want to be truthful to her despite the fact that she can take people's judgments and such. Like, he just wants to keep her happy and not tell her how he really feels. :/
And she's pretty much giving herself this mindset that she hates where she lives (her parents' house) and she wants to move in with her boyfriend, because Santa Monica (town about an hour and a half from here) represents that hope for her. Hope for a job, schooling and marriage. So far she can't get the schooling so she's falling back on just the job and being with her boyfriend....so idk. I want to believe in it for her own well being, but it also sounds like something that could blow up in her face. So I'm a little worried, but it's not like she doesn't know this either...