Night S.t.a.n.d
//Under||Construction//l l N a m e l l Lee Alexander Carnovale
l l A g e l l 8t33n
l l H e i g h t l l 5'eight
l l W e i g h t l l 1.hundred.48 lbs
l l E y e C o l o r l l Blue
l l H a i r C o l o r l l Dark Brown .&&. Blond Highlights
l l F a v o r i t e F o o d l l Shrimp Spring Rolls .&&. Thai Food
l l F a v o r i t e B a n d (s) l l Dir En Grey .&&. Miyavi .&&. Gackt
l l F a v o r i t e M o v i e l l Party M0nster
l l H e r o l l Ryan Reynolds
l l P e t P e e v e (s) / W e a k n e s s l l Cheaters .&&. Haters//Deep <3 for Jellybeans .&&. Reeses Pieces
l l J o b l l Personal b.i.t.c.h to the
w o r l d
l l P e r s o n a l i t y l l Most of the time, I'm pretty out going and sarcastic, a bit of a sadist and totally a masochist. Goes hand in hand with the whole uke thing. If you don't know what an "uke" is...go to www.wikipedia.com and check it out...
I can get pretty shy if I'm with a huge group of people, but I try to be as friendly as possible. I love hanging out with my friends and just joking around.
l l T h e m e S o n g l l SexyBack - Justin Timberlake
And according to "Commander Nao"...Candeh ish mad cool ^__^
Do you think Candeh ish mad cool? Let him know!!
HOMIGAWD!!!11 Candeh gots avvie arts!!!!
Wanna see? Check out mah journal! ^_____^
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It's been almost six years since you died, and six years since Sho left.
There was no warning or explanation.
He was just gone.
And I had never needed anyone so badly as I need him then.
But I waited.
Weeks passed, then months,
Finally, years later, I just assumed that he was dead, too.
Earlier this month, he updated his Gaia profile.
It was sort of a public announcement to everyone who he abandoned.
At first, I was numb,
then happy,
then sad,
then irate.
And now I feel like my heart has been ripped out and salt rubbed in the wound.
Sho isn't 'coming back'.
He hasn't been online since he updated his profile.
I hate him so much, Lee. I do.
I loved him with every fiber of my being, and this whole time he was alive and could have returned.
I wish you were here to tell me what to do.
I wish you'd never left,
because he'd still be here, too.
God, I miss you so much. Every time I think of you, my heart dies just a little more. People might hate me for sullying your profile with these unwanted and unnecessary words, but I need to do this. I still remember when I first met you. Bright. Full of life. It was no wonder that I loved you, Lee. I still do, little one. I think of you every day and pray to whoever is out there that you are no longer suffering. But if there is nothing after this life, then you are the more lucky among the two of us. I am still here, haunted by ghosts of the past, pained by the precious, wonderful, beautiful memories you have given me, old friend. I think of you always. I think of all the rest of the old room always. Strange, is it not? After all these years and I've grown...unbearably soft. I wonder how they are, what they are doing, if they are well and happy. I've even checked their profiles once or twice and some of them have forgotten, some have moved on and found their own happiness. I am glad for them. It was better for them to forget the past, but I take it upon myself to remember each and every word spoken, each and every action performed, each and every love created and broken. As I write these words, I shall be 25...far older than I was when we first met. Far older...but still my memory is keen. If you were to find me now, I wonder what you would say? Would you laugh? Would you hate me? Would you hug me and sit at my feet while I took my place upon that ridiculous chair that I fashioned for myself...? I cannot help but wonder. I cannot help but think of you, for every time I am in an electronics store I see your username at every earphone aisle. It tortures me so, but that is the punishment I must bear. I keep wondering if it was my fault. I keep wondering what I could have done differently to keep you by my side. But it is impossible. You are gone and we are all left here. I am left here to grieve...and to remember.
...I miss you so much that I could die, Lee. I wish to god that he could take me instead and cast me into the everlasting fire while restoring you to life. People on this earth NEED your brightness, Lee. It is far too dark a place to live in now. I just wish you were here to shine some light upon the place.
I miss you, Lee. I love you, and I shall never forget your name.
One of my good friends passed away this morning. Drunk driving accident. He died upon impact.
I had almost forgotten what it feels like when someone died. The horror and the pain and the disbelief that you feel. I haven't felt that way since you died. I thought that maybe it would hurt less, knowing that this one wasn't a suicide, but it still burns so deeply within my soul that I want to shatter. His name was Jeffery Ray Blythe. If you ever meet him, please let him know how much he is missed.
thanks
*gives you a willy wonka cake* (yes there can be such a thing)
enjoy ^^