It’s okay hun. I’m used to paragraphs since my other friend writes a lot.
Reading it now.
I’ll respond to it fully when I can but just looking at it. I’d say do what makes you happy like with drawing. I mean if it means anything I always liked your art. I would also say if your not happy living where you are move cause it isn’t mentally good for you and wouldn’t be good for a job.
Money situations suck. I mean I don’t know personally but I know ppl who go through stuff.