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Report | 01/14/2011 12:15 am

octavius fair

heheh your funny*hugles you close*

Report | 01/13/2011 10:30 pm

killinjack

Thank you for buying smile love the profile btw. May i add you as a friend?

Report | 01/13/2011 9:50 pm

Berserk HeaIer

Thank you for the buy! C:

Report | 01/08/2011 5:59 am

bunny booties

Hello hello hello~
<3

Report | 01/04/2011 12:04 pm

Doenjang Girl

how was ur christmas and new years? heart

Report | 01/04/2011 8:35 am

Doenjang Girl

-huggies- ._.

Report | 01/03/2011 8:07 pm

lnstaII

Nooo Luareate

Report | 01/03/2011 12:28 pm

lnstaII

This is Nao-kun's lil sis.... member ? I'm Mara! xD

Report | 01/02/2011 4:23 pm

Issendai Xanthias

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Report | 01/02/2011 9:06 am

Harrotz

It's kinda funny though. It's something embarrassing to tell in real...
And I'm trying not to do some things.

But I can't help it. >w<

Report | 01/02/2011 8:42 am

Harrotz

= 3= You're trying to mock me now?

Report | 01/02/2011 7:49 am

Harrotz

Thanks. ^-^ *Hugs back*

Though... I'm such a pervert guy. (In Gaia) = 3=

Report | 01/02/2011 7:16 am

Harrotz

Sorry if I talk too much. TwT

Report | 01/02/2011 6:42 am

Harrotz

That's long. .___." Sorry bout that.

Report | 01/02/2011 6:41 am

Harrotz

It is not just a thing.
It's someone.

Though, we never go trough any relation, and back then I only know her for a sem.
But I deny my feelings and told myself she's just like a sister.
At the same time, she likes someone.
I help her to go closer to that person. (End up there's nothing happening now, plus that guy with another girl)
I was a fool. I slip her off. I don't know if it's just infatuated.
And we didn't even do much.
When I first saw her, I never thought of her being the prettiest or the cutest.
But as time passes and we have some hang around time together, that's what develop that feeling.
I don't notice it, until the day she confess her feelings to that guy.
And I realize, it feels really hurt and lonely. (Even though before this happens, people keep telling me that they know I like her, but I keep denying it and said she's just like a sister)
Then, I chase her too much when I know there's nothing happening between them.
But my feelings was like this...
From stranger, to classmate, to friends, to "sibling-kinda-relation", to liking her, to love her, then...
I was a little to obsessed. Probably because I was too lonely.
I was out of control.
And end up screwing up everything.
Now I know most of the time I don't really think of her. But lately, the thoughts of her keep lingering in my mind.
I wish I could apologize. I wish everything can be erased or return back to the time before I screwed it up.
I don't know why I think of her sometimes recently.
I know I do seen her a couple of times before the previous semester ended.
Because she finish her class early, and so she comes to visit her friends who's in my class. (She's in different major now, that's why her class finish early)
Since that hell period, I try to avoid her as much as I can. (And so what I think she's doing)
I know, my appearance to her is only a pain to her.
So, I don't want to bother her anymore.
Though I still cannot forget her.
If I saw her around our friend would just talk to each other. (Including her)
I rather not budge in the conversation and appear in front of her.
So, I avoid the conversation and do my own business.
Even in the last anime convention, I was cosplaying. I don't know if she notice me, or even know if I'm cosplaying.
Probably her friend told her that I'm cosplaying also.
And whenever I saw her, I try to avoid her, to avoid any drama or any complicated things.
But every time I saw her, my heart feels heavy. I can feel how heavy my heart is beating.
I don't know if I am nervous or anything. But I think I'm afraid. I'm afraid of her. Afraid to hurt her again.

((I just remember something. We had a photoshoot for our photography class. So she came to be a model as she was suggested by a friend. So there was two model only. One is my friend's boyfriend, another is her. And obviously, I only took pictures of my friend's boyfriend. But when she's up for the model, I avoid, and take a break for a tea time. And a friend notice that I didn't take her picture and asked why. And I was like, "you know why." It's such a heavy moment.))

So back when it was the first semester, at first I didn't see her beauty. But she is beautiful to me. And she's pure inside. Even though she's like a new planted seed, I can feel that beauty.

Report | 01/02/2011 5:15 am

Harrotz

Nani?! (What?!)

I'm really touched... crying

Though most people who trust me comes from Gaia. User Image

I wish I could give them the best I could. But sometimes I'm so selfish. And I'm not that active in Gaia. x_x

And, I always feel lonely. No matter what people say, or how people comfort me. My heart seems to feel lonely. I just wish I can let go of some things. But I still can't... =< Lots of things had happened...

Report | 01/02/2011 4:37 am

Harrotz

Good thing you could at least make them realize it.

But no. I'm just not that kinda person. = 3= I do not know of their relations with the people I don't know. I do not know of their background. I'm too stuck to myself. ^ ^;; I could just give them a hug and tell them it's alright. But that won't work well.

Though luck, I don't have any close friends or anyone that have me as their most trusted friends. Well, I do have some who talk to me about some stuff. Yet, I just don't know what to do. ._____."

It shucks sho bad. = 3=

Report | 01/02/2011 4:17 am

Harrotz

Uuuuh... Probably I tend to type for ages and prefer to spell normally. So I get used to it.

But in Gaia forums, some douche would just go telling me to use proper English and such. I know I couldn't use the simplest words to say things, because my vocabulary ain't that good. Though, I use word by word to explain. Probably it's too long. And probably, they just trying to use that excuse so-called-don't-understand-my-English.

But back to the friends I was talking about, because at the moment, I was the only guy there. And though my bond is not as close as they are. But if there are some guys that I am sure I know are close to them, they would still talk about some stuff. And I would still be the quiet one. = 3=

Report | 01/02/2011 4:02 am

Harrotz

I could not say a thing when it comes to something serious.

Or most of my friends would only talk about it to those they trust the most.

There are a few times, those friends I like and pretty much their awesomeness are beyond my level or my reach. They had a discussion about one of their problems. Since it's kinda private, and their bond is strong (They are girls anyway) and I'm pretty much naive, so I could not do a thing. And they politely told me to give them a private session.

It kinda saddens me to know that I am not useful at all. Though, they don't want their problems to be in people's mouth, so it won't spread fast. It was at a restaurant, so I had to just walk around.

And pretty much, I could not do anything to comfort anyone that I know around me. =/

Report | 01/02/2011 3:46 am

Harrotz

Oh shush. I can be a complete idiot most of the time. = 3=

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