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~Jesse-Boy Colin Lanza~
My little brother was my best friend and still is. I remember how we would play tea party's and house together, him always being the father. Then I would play cars and lego's with him. Giggling at night when my mom would let us sleep together and the bubble baths we had where the floor normally ended up soaking wet. Being only 3 when he was diagnosed with leukemia it was a sad time. But we mad the best of it. He was never out of energy. He would go riding his bike or skating around the halls at the hospital with my mom right behind him pushing his IV cords and what not. He was full of energy except when he had treatment. During those times I would sit with him watching TV or playing video games. I was always giving him gifts that I had made at the kid center they had at the hospital. He always looked forward to them. I
was a match for his transplant. As I was only 6 or 7 and him being 4 or 5 I didn't quiet get what we were doing, but that it would help save his life and cure him. The doctors always encouraged me saying "This will make Jesse all better." Now see what the doctors didn't know was that Jesse and I were a perfect match. Meaning our blood was so similar that his body couldn't tell it apart from his. For years I didn't understand why he had died when the doctors had said he would be cured. It was a sad time and memories from that time are few. It's sort of like I had a HUGE black out, but my family and I got through it together and with the help from God. I still miss him every single day and wonder what life would be like if he was still here. Like school. He would be one grade behind me. I can just imagine when I graduate and he still has a year left and I get to tease him about it. There would of been great times together. Even though, there will be great times to look forward to in heaven.

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The way we celebrate Jesse's new birthday is on Nov. 16 (the day he passed) we get a cake and throw a little family party because we know he is no longer in pain and is completly healthy with the Lord.

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We will always love you Jesse-Boy. xoxoxo
(Jesse-Boy was our special name for him.)

Your sis,
Nessa
(the_cereal_queen)