Today I told her the truth. It happened like I thought it would. and now she is gone. a good chance that its forever. I wish I could undo all the bad that I have done. I wish I could still hold her in my arms while we lay in bed. I wish I wasn't such a horrible person. *cries*
It is a truth that I am not a good person. I must become a good person. But to change who one is is difficult. From this day forth, three things. I will not drink but once a week. I will not do drugs ever again. I will strive to be a better person. I would like to say it was four and that the third is that I will win her back. But I'm afraid that I have hurt her too much. ******** up too many times. Glad I know better than to commit suicide. cause ifI didn't, now is the best time.
*cries himself to sleep*
XxLuckyxX · Tue Dec 06, 2005 @ 04:17am · 1 Comments |