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I have unexplained feelings toward a person |
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Over the past couple of years I've been in pursuit of a woman who has made it clear on several occasions she will never like me in that way, and normally when rejected I never contact that person again, but here I am years later still trying to contact, WHY!!!!???? It puzzles me, my only conclusion is a form of LOVE, I compare her to others, I see her when I watch shows or animes, I hear her name in tv lines or in ads, I see her name in newspapers and articles, my best friend lives on a street of her name (not same spelling), either Fate is pointing to someone with that name or her or something is trying to make my life miserable.
When I do get to talk her I always say the wrong thing and creep her out, I can never win, yet I'm not giving up. Or I'll message her using false names or check in on a profile, which is in my book as well as others CREEPY STALKER s**t, now if I know that it's just wrong and I'm more liable to scary the ******** s**t out of her for doing so, why do I continue to do it? I've tried, I've dated other people, I find other people attractive, but something idk what drives me to her and it's making me go WTF!? I find her attractive in personality, interests, style of dress (love male clothes on a chick, not sure why) and her face, but I don't think of her in a sexual way, which gg if she read this and was insulted that it's not her body I'm attracted to, if by chance she did, uh sorry. Still an attraction to a person for them being them even after being rejected should warrant me to give up and yet, creepy actions are still being taken, in constant fear one that I'll scare her so bad actions will be taken and two if I stop everything that I'll never see her again, thus either way I lose seriously lose.
What actions can I take to resolve this? Either I figure out how to completely erase her from my mind and soul or she by some miracle accepts my uber creepy self, which is again a miracle, and to find someone that understanding is impossible. So I guess how can I erase her from thought both conscious and sub-conscious?
DK Blight · Sun Jul 10, 2011 @ 10:59pm · 0 Comments |
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