Yeah, well folks. It's another one of those enetries, explaining how things are with life and how emotions can ******** with me.
For starters folks,
Thanksgiving sucked, I hated it. I lost the one I loved for a couple of days, because of words of anger.
Now, most can say, I don't have emotions, that I'm a cold hearted b*****d who doesn't give a ******** about one person in life, not even myself. But ya know, if you really want to know. You should ask people like Della, Shadow_Dreamer, and Draco-chan. Those three know how I was. Hell Della, and Draco even heard me, the way I sounded with my voice and the way I acted to things.
You see what brought this. Was the fact people don't understand who I am, what I am. How I act to things.
First things is, never speak negative things about people, because I'll feed off that negativity and endure it, turning it into hatered.
Second things is, When I'm pissed, what I say. I never mean. They are words of anger, I speak before thinking clearly. People do this all the time, even meaning when they speak something like. Threating someone's life.
Third thing is, Never say my closest friends don't know the wonder ways of me. Meaning how I can be when I'm pissed, what I can say. Because they know way ******** more then you people do! Atleast, they try to get things out of me, asking me what is causing all of this, what's wrong, and also, they know I would never take anyone's life.
People say Hatered is such a strong word, yet to me. Hatered is such a weak word, yet people's minds make them think it's a strong word. I hate many people, yet when I'm pissed and I say I hate someone. Most of the time I don't mean it. Yet, hurt someone I care for, treat them like s**t, or do anything to them that isn't going to have a good effect, then you better believe, I'm going to have a strong hatered or I'm going to really dislike you.
Lessons learned within this:
-Words of anger mean nothing.
-People take me the wrong way, for the way I take things and do things.
-Simple minded people, don't know what life is truely. (*COUGHS!* Parents.)
-Friends are not true friends, if they don't want you to be happy or do something to endanger you.
Now to move on.
This mess still has me all messed, screawing with my emotions. Even though I'm with the person, I want to be with the most in life. I'm still depressed and stressed, due to the fact. I'm afraid, I'm going to cause problem with her and her family and friends, then everything that happened on Thanksgiving, will repeat it's self. Which will caused me to break and lose my damn mind. I can hardly sleep because of dreams, infact I'm afraid of going to sleep. I still feel sick from it. I'm afraid of losing the one I love the most on this Earth, because of this stuff once again. Hences the reason, why I feel this way. I feel so lifeless, to the fact, I daze out more then I have before in my lifetime. I've limited myself, to who I talk to. Due to the fact, people take me too seriously on things.
Alright, no done with this emo bullshit. Now I'm sending my message to everyone who will read this.
If you ever take me serious on my words, and think you know me, when you do not. You know what, you so goddamn lost in what you think is life. You're too sheltered. You don't know hard times, you don't know how hard life can be. Of course, I haven't had life that bad. But I've had it bad, to the fact I find life so sickening, that it's like a disease to this world. One that infects everyone. But you know, even though I see it that way. I'll still live on, till my time is up. Then, I'll leave whatever I did in this thing called life, behind for people who do care to remeber me by.
Below you'll find many things about me and life..
Lessons needed to learn:
-Sometimes, it's required to bite you're tounge.
-I am, what I make myself to be.
-I would never take anyone's life.
-People's words are only ment to destory you.
-Don't give out you're trust so freely, make people earn it.
-Never let go of the one you love the most, no matter what people say.
Also, I would thank to a couple of people, with helping me through these hard times.
Della: -Kurenai Yume-.
~Draco-Chan~.
Shilline.
[Supaiku].
and Shadow_Dreamer.
(The friends that matter the most to me.)
People that I hate the most in life!
Cloud Dakota: Because he thinks he's everything in life and he's better then everyone.
Sere: Because she's a skank.
Spasms: Because I just ******** hate her.
Parents in this world: Because they are simple minded.
Remeber, nothing can come between me and the one I love.
With that, I leave you people all. For another day, when I appear.
For starters folks,
Thanksgiving sucked, I hated it. I lost the one I loved for a couple of days, because of words of anger.
Now, most can say, I don't have emotions, that I'm a cold hearted b*****d who doesn't give a ******** about one person in life, not even myself. But ya know, if you really want to know. You should ask people like Della, Shadow_Dreamer, and Draco-chan. Those three know how I was. Hell Della, and Draco even heard me, the way I sounded with my voice and the way I acted to things.
You see what brought this. Was the fact people don't understand who I am, what I am. How I act to things.
First things is, never speak negative things about people, because I'll feed off that negativity and endure it, turning it into hatered.
Second things is, When I'm pissed, what I say. I never mean. They are words of anger, I speak before thinking clearly. People do this all the time, even meaning when they speak something like. Threating someone's life.
Third thing is, Never say my closest friends don't know the wonder ways of me. Meaning how I can be when I'm pissed, what I can say. Because they know way ******** more then you people do! Atleast, they try to get things out of me, asking me what is causing all of this, what's wrong, and also, they know I would never take anyone's life.
People say Hatered is such a strong word, yet to me. Hatered is such a weak word, yet people's minds make them think it's a strong word. I hate many people, yet when I'm pissed and I say I hate someone. Most of the time I don't mean it. Yet, hurt someone I care for, treat them like s**t, or do anything to them that isn't going to have a good effect, then you better believe, I'm going to have a strong hatered or I'm going to really dislike you.
Lessons learned within this:
-Words of anger mean nothing.
-People take me the wrong way, for the way I take things and do things.
-Simple minded people, don't know what life is truely. (*COUGHS!* Parents.)
-Friends are not true friends, if they don't want you to be happy or do something to endanger you.
Now to move on.
This mess still has me all messed, screawing with my emotions. Even though I'm with the person, I want to be with the most in life. I'm still depressed and stressed, due to the fact. I'm afraid, I'm going to cause problem with her and her family and friends, then everything that happened on Thanksgiving, will repeat it's self. Which will caused me to break and lose my damn mind. I can hardly sleep because of dreams, infact I'm afraid of going to sleep. I still feel sick from it. I'm afraid of losing the one I love the most on this Earth, because of this stuff once again. Hences the reason, why I feel this way. I feel so lifeless, to the fact, I daze out more then I have before in my lifetime. I've limited myself, to who I talk to. Due to the fact, people take me too seriously on things.
Alright, no done with this emo bullshit. Now I'm sending my message to everyone who will read this.
If you ever take me serious on my words, and think you know me, when you do not. You know what, you so goddamn lost in what you think is life. You're too sheltered. You don't know hard times, you don't know how hard life can be. Of course, I haven't had life that bad. But I've had it bad, to the fact I find life so sickening, that it's like a disease to this world. One that infects everyone. But you know, even though I see it that way. I'll still live on, till my time is up. Then, I'll leave whatever I did in this thing called life, behind for people who do care to remeber me by.
Below you'll find many things about me and life..
Lessons needed to learn:
-Sometimes, it's required to bite you're tounge.
-I am, what I make myself to be.
-I would never take anyone's life.
-People's words are only ment to destory you.
-Don't give out you're trust so freely, make people earn it.
-Never let go of the one you love the most, no matter what people say.
Also, I would thank to a couple of people, with helping me through these hard times.
Della: -Kurenai Yume-.
~Draco-Chan~.
Shilline.
[Supaiku].
and Shadow_Dreamer.
(The friends that matter the most to me.)
People that I hate the most in life!
Cloud Dakota: Because he thinks he's everything in life and he's better then everyone.
Sere: Because she's a skank.
Spasms: Because I just ******** hate her.
Parents in this world: Because they are simple minded.
Remeber, nothing can come between me and the one I love.
With that, I leave you people all. For another day, when I appear.
