Uh hello it's been a while since I vented huh? Well here I go...
My mom's in the hospital because she nearly passed out while at the wheel. Thank God my dad as with her and he drove to the hospital. This happened at 6 in the afternoon and I thought my mom would be back that night at the latest thinking it was a check up, But of course not. She's going to stay over there for a few nights. That of course got me depressed but I decided to try to look on the bright side and act as if nothing was wrong. Which didn't work out as my friend bugged me about something in math... (( You know who you are and don't talk about it. >< wink ) Then I heard this kid in my class Patrick say that I had no friends (( I only have 1 friend in most of my classes who leaves me in the middle of the class and I get left out or I just get pushed aside. and I only have 2 classes with my closest friends and they where in math at the time so it brought my happy levels down also...)) Which isn't true so there went another chunk of my self estem.... Which I bearly have any by the way... -.-
Another thing that's been bugging me is that My dad an I get along and everything but he doesn't understand me AT ALL. When we where on the elevator He noticed that my brother was about to cry. I of course being the big sister cheer him up and all of us end up in ahappy mood. When we where coming back from visiting my mom at the hospital My brother mentions that he wants to go to the mall for more food. (( pig.)) So my dad agrees of course. I asked for a book and he said No of course. He didn't know the mall very well so I told him where to go to find the closest parking spot to the food court. He doesn't thank me when I'm done. We go inside and he asks if I wanted anything to eat. I said no because I wasn't hungry. We go out. I'm in a bad mood at the time. We start driving to our house where the book store is located on the way there. I glance at it hopeful that he would attempt to make it up to me but no. He keeps driving and have way home he has the nerve to ask me what was wrong. I told him that he does WHAT EVER my brother asks him to do and NOTHING that I ask him to do. He didn't even say thank you! So after I vent a little he mumbles something and says " Thank you" In a playful manner and gets my brother to join in. I just sigh and look out the window. That's when I realized that I would be lost without my mom. I mean SHE Understands me and I understand her. I would die without her. I mean she's my mom and I love her with all my heart... I don't want her to die... I really don't cause I love her too much.. I mean She knows me inside and out while my dad understands my brother he barely understands me at all... I just hope it's nothing serious... I dont want her to die on me or get sick...
(( Wow I'm pathitic.. I'm crying as I write this..))
That's it. My horribly sucky life. Comment if you want I could care less. I'll probably be depressed for a few days so don't blame me if I'm not my usual happy self.
 Hyperkittikat · Thu Dec 13, 2007 @ 02:36am · 0 Comments |
