Hello. It's been a while since I've posted something in my journal. Well I just want to get a few things off of my chest.
Alright. Number one. I'm Annoyed with Candace and Caitlin. I mean Candace is so insenstive and I feel like Caitlin is stealing my only true friend. I've known her for 2 or 3 years but the first time we met I felt something. Like we were supposed to be freinds. I was the only one that came up to her one the first few days of school and invited her to come and sit with me and my freinds at lunch. We became instant freinds.
I introduced her to Gaia.
When she got her first boyfreind I was there to cheer her on.
When we went to our first Dance I was there to have fun with her.
I mentioned Anime and the show Naruto to her.
We became major Naruto fans together.
When she got dumped with her boyfreind I was there to cheer her up.
Now when I moved and transferred out of the sixth grade I knew that she would make new friends and That i wouldn't always be with her. I accepted that. I thought we would still be better freinds then any of them combined since we had a bond.
Then when we started the seventh grade She met Caitlin and she started spending time with her. I was alright. I accepted that. Then she got a Gaian account and Candace begged me to let her join the private roleplay that I made for US ONLY! I caved and said that she could join us. Then she started spending more and more time with her. I was alright with that because I had freinds in my new school. Though I was still attached to Candace because of our freindship.
Then I heard that Caitlin was coming over her house and She started blowing me off. If I called and Caitlin was there she would just say that she would call me back later. She never did. I would be the one that was always calling her. I also found out that she was also sleeping over at Caitlins and Caitlin was over her house. Whch made me feel even worse because I'm not aloud to sleep at my freinds house. So I felt out of the loop.
Then I started getting into an Anime called peacemakers about a week after Candace did. I knew that she was recording the episodes on her computer and I asked if I could come over and watch it with her sometimes. She said that she was sorry because she and Caitlin had already watched the begining episodes and she deleted them all. I felt crushed but I nodded and said that It was alright.
Then she started not litsening to what I was saying on the phone and I was getting extremely tired of it. She also would tell me their little plans of when we would go to an Anime expo or Halloween about dressing up as various anime characters and doing little skits. At first I went along just glad that she wanted to inculd me in something. Then I just grew tired of it. I finally said that I didn't want to be someone that I didn't know and she sighed and said it was alright. It didn't matter.
The final straw was when She told me that she found a roleplay that I would like. I said sure I'll join thinking that it was just me and her not Caitlin. As it turns out She had invited Caitlin and I was paired up to be partners with her. I felt angry but gritted my teeth and beared it through until I found out that Caitlin didn't want to rolplay with I picture I was going to use. At first I tried to endure it until I just snapped and said That I dont want to change a picture that I liked because of Caitlin. I sent her a pm not wanting to call her knowing I would either get angry and yell at her or just burst out crying like I am now while I'm writing this. I told her that I didn't want to be in that roleplay that she had invited me to and that I was Planing on quiting the Naruto Roleplay that I had made for HER and MYSELF. She sent me a pm that She was shocked and that she wanted to know Why. I just sent her a pm telling her some of the reasons why I wanted to quit. Thats where I am now. She still hasn't sent a pm back.
(( Mean while all of this time I have had problems in my new school because my new freinds are fighting with each other. A freind's brother died last week and I didn't want to complain to them making them think that I was a whiny self center girl. I also haven't mentioned any of this to my boyfreind because he has problems of his own and he doesn't really talk about things for to long. Not to mention Candace is a freind of his also.))
Hyperkittikat · Wed Jun 20, 2007 @ 11:37pm · 3 Comments |