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Please view and comment on all 20+ of them!! I'm trying to get feedback on my poems, so I can see if they are any good and try to eventually publish them all.


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Turning around?
Well, some things in my life have taken a turn for the better. I met a really great guy at work and we've been dating almost five months. He started me on Atkins four months ago and I've lost (as of yesterday, with ups and down through the past two months) nearly 45 pounds. I'm on a pill instead of a shot for my major medical problems, so that has helped with both the weight and the constant pain I've been in.
Although I'm still yo-yo'ing between IRS and unemployment and still can't find work in the culinary field, things seem to be looking up. Mom and I are having a garage sale tomorrow, and I'm going to put out a table of my jams and marmalade to see if I can sell any. Hopefully then I'll have some repeat customers. I do NOT want to just give away these hundred jars of preserves I have stacked up in the garage, that represents many hours of effort, and if I gave them away it feels like all that effort would have been wasted.





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AAAAARGH!!!!
Sorry, folks, I'm not quoting a pirate here, I'm just disgusted and upset with the way my life is going. Seems like I'm living on the edge of a yo-yo: just when I think I can be self-sufficient and live away from my parents, something happens to drag me back under. Tried moving all the way across the country to Albany, NY, and I couldn't find a job. Had to come back to Cali with my tail between my legs. This is now the THIRD time I've had to go back to my parents' house. I just can't catch a break.

Will I live in Fresno until I die? It may happen sooner than you think... I'm developing major health problems from living in this gods-forsaken desert!




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FINALLY!!!!
I'm no longer living under my parents' roof, which means no more restrictions on where and when I can go online!!! Now all I need to do is set up Internet access at my new apartment for the free 20-gig harddrive my adopted twin gave me. On another upbeat note, I finally received the last donation to bring my total to 20,000 gold, which I will now go use to start my guild.




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Sorry again.
Hey, people. I hate not being able to log-on here at home, but they're still steamed over their "investigation" back in March. *sighs* Ah, well, c'est la vie. (That means "that's life" for those of you who don't speak French) I won't be on for the foreseeable future because my grandmother broke her hip last week, and I've been elected to be packed up North to stay with my Alzheimer grandfather for the next two weeks. eek gonk So I won't be here for at least three weeks, my friends. I'll miss you all! *group huggle*



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Sorry
Hey people! Sorry I haven't been online lately to talk with you and give updates on my guild, but my parents grounded me and banned me from the computer. The only reason I'm online right now is because I snuck out to the library while I'm supposed to be job-hunting... which I will start as soon as I finish this! I miss all of you, but I'll try to be on more when my mother goes to Canada. I hope you will continue to help me build up the guild while I'm gone, I'm really looking forward to starting it when I (and you my dear friends of course) finally collect the 20,000 gold necessary. Have a fun summer guys!




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Funny Site!!!
A friend of mine sent me this link, and the video is hilarious! Princess Lettuce, Cuke Skywalker, Chew-Broccoli, Obi-Wan Cannoli, Darth Tater (I don't know if this came out before or after the Mr. Potato Head toy did)! "Aren't you a little tall for an egg?" Go to www.storewars.org to see it and laugh with me.



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How?
How?
How do you love someone
When they don't even know your name?
How can you tell them,
And take away your pain?

Who do you turn to,
When you're in love with your friend?
What can you say to them,
Who think you're "friends" to the end?

What is love,
And what is death?
How do you live,
When your life feels like "Macbeth?"

I'm trying to holler,
But no one is here.
Have I lost my voice,
That no one can hear?

I lay down my heart,
I give you my life.
Each day you reject me,
It cuts like a knife.

How many times
Can one heart be broken?
When may I give you
Affection's first token?

Cupid and Aphrodite,
Thou ficklest of gods,
I was struck with feathers,
But his arrows were iron rods.

Artemis, Lady Moon,
Wilt thou aid me?
Send with thy swiftest hound
To his ear my loving plea.

Lastly, O Hera,
Goddess and Queen,
Is there not something
To make me less green?


I wrote this in November of 2004, and gave it to two guys I've had crushes on for some time... the first is engaged EDIT-and has been married since July-EDIT; the second has disappeared and is avoiding me.




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To John, with Sorrow.
To John, with Sorrow
Forgive the one who wronged you;
Forgive me, please, please please.
Forgive the one who angered you;
Forgive me, give me peace.

John, I am sorry for my queries;
The questions that turned you away.
I wish I could destroy them,
Erase them from that day.

Remember the photo of me that I sent you?
Remember the photo, of the fairy in the rain?
Remember the good times we laughed and shared together?
Please don't make me become that Gray Fairy again!

My brother, my heart is breaking;
I truly miss you so.
Li'l bro, forgive me please?
I do not wish to go!!!

I wish you would forgive me, John.
I do in deepest shame abide.
I think the world of you, bro;
My place, li'l bro, is at your side.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
What more can I say?
I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
Forgive me I pray.


I wrote this in March of 2004 for a boy I consider my brother, whom I wronged deeply. I penned this in apology.



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Once the Magic is Gone.
Once the Magic is Gone.
Chapter 1. For Matt.
The way is paved with broken memories
Once the magic is gone.
Our hearts are like those of strangers'
Once the magic is gone

When we see each other we feel nothing
Once the magic is gone.
We will never feel anything again
Once the magic is gone.

All we feel is hatred for each other
Once the magic is gone.
We will never love each other again
Once the magic is gone.

I miss your loving face looking at me
Once the magic is gone.
I will never feel your arms around me
Once the magic is gone.

You miss my hand caressing your face
Once the magic is gone.
You will never feel my touch again
Once the magic is gone.

Our special place is special no more
Once the magic is gone.
We will never again have that place
Once the magic is gone.

We will never again wait by the phone
One the magic is gone.
We will not even talk anymore
Once the magic is gone.

Chapter 2. For Adam.
When you cast your eyes upon her,
I told myself I did not care.
But later, I found out that
In reality, I did not at all.

I gave you my heart and soul,
But you destroyed me with a word.
You gave me nothing but friendship,
But I cherished the time we had.

I am now lost among those with whom
The magic light of love has gone.
You continue on without a backwards
Glance at the one whose heart you took.

I will always be searching
For our magic to come back,
Even though I know that
It is all just a dream.

I will never be able to love another
Since you took my magic away.
I will only be able to love you
Until you give back my heart.

Please give me back my magic,
I wish to use it again.
Someone, please help me to find it in
My heart to forgive him who took it.

Chapter 3. For Adam, again.
If I travelled the world over,
I would not be able to recover my magic.
Only he who took it in the first place
Would be able to replace it.

When I was lost in the seas of despair,
The one who could help me wouldn't.
When I am now trying to find my self,
It is in the hands of one I once called "Love."

I will need my self to gain the love
I once thought would never find me.
I wish that you would give me back my magic
So that I can go on with my life.

Where is the magic that I once gave
To him who spurned my love?
It is still with him, until the time
He see fit to give it back to me.

The way is paved with broken memories
Once the magic is gone.
Our hearts are those of strangers'
Now that the magic is gone.


This is for my best friend, when I told him I loved him and he said "let's just be friends." Also for my ex-boyfriend, who dumped me as a birthday present... two weeks after my birthday.




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