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my mind when evrything is silent and dark.
i feel like im waiting for a day, a love, a life that will never come. which is it, or is it neither. am i a fool to hold on, or am i suppost to wait for the right moment to act. im tired of feeling used, but i would hate to walk away, and i dare not speak my true feelings or thoughts to the ones they concern. they do not mean to hurt me, im the one hurting myself, my mind is quick to jump and before i can stop it its on the trail of something much faster then it. my heart wants something and my heart wants something else, but the only problem is that both are out of my reach. others reach my goal but im left in the dust forced to watch unable to turn away, its like im trapped between two gloves, both can stop the pain from comming i can depend on either one but they can both hit me to, both can draw blood. i know they'd never hit me, at least not meaning to but words or less can do the same things they'd never do. i dont where to go, im in this world of my own, but i know its not real and thats what kills, to think of happy endings that will never end up with me. i could be happy, i could smile but this life got in the way, and that is why i sleep and read the days away, i escape into a world that can completely take me away to place where happy ending just happen everyday, it may not be healthy but i really dont mind, because at least worring about their trouble will make me forget mine. to not thinnk that i am just used everyday, that im just a peice of trash they picked up off the road on their way, that they are just here so they can throw me away. i tired of being lied to so you know what ill just tell you, im here for the moment but im not here forever, i will eventually get so tired of this game you are playing that i will just walk away without my explaining im sick of this torture it is me or its her or its them take your pick but stop being a d**k cause thats what you are now just stringing me along, dont play with my head i cant take it anymore, to much has happened and im still not ok so stop playing my patients is thinned so much i know you can see and i f you can tthen i've given you too much credit. you keep pushing me till you can tell im at the edge or till i move away, but thats not cool you need to stop dont you know how bad that screws me up, when i cant sleep for thinking or you and how it could be, while knowing your just messing and i dont really mean a thing in your eyes but a toy something you can play with whenever you get bored well guess what my dears this toy just grew fangs and if you try to mess around again im gonna tear you to sheds i dont want to hurt anymore ive known you for years, come on guys ease up wont you, cant you stop all these tears, it dosnt matter cause youll never read this, you cant youll never try, but i gotta warn you about something its my new motto "an eye for an eye" just a warning, you break my heart, ill rip yours out, im tired of being a princessin a tower waiting for a price to rescue me, ******** that, im slaying my own dragon now. you were too slow, your time is up.
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