life sux okay.. i swear... i was reading some older journal entrys.. and they are all about carson when she was here and we were togeaher and its like god i feel so mcuh hate right now.. i cant beleive i ever fell for it all. odv. it wasnt real love and all.. idk i was so happy when she was here and although i may not have totally shown it i did the best i could and she was the only thing that i looked forward to and lived for and it was like what we had would never end but it did.. rlly fast.. and than so many things happened and there was joe and that ended rlly fast and it seems i am unlucky wit love. i wonder where i would be if i never dated carson. or is she never moved. would we still be togeather. or no? idk but it seems i have very complicated emotions.. i have lost so many people and all and wit the way my life is i have a hard time leting go of things..
XxShAnxX · Sat Apr 21, 2007 @ 02:37am · 0 Comments |