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Mood of the day: If your heart is broken once, it takes so much to trust again...

Like, it's been so long, you'd think I'd be fine now, but I don't think I ever could be. I'm so ********' paranoid about everything, just today, someone didn't reply to me on msn, and I was crying for like half an hour, most retarded s**t ever. I'm still cryin', when's it gonna stop? Can't there be someone who will love me ********, obsess over me, think about me all the time, and only, only be mine. Is that too much to ask for? It probably is, but still, 6 billion people, gotta be one willing to be that one person for me.

It's all my fault I guess, I expect too much from people, it's too unfair to ask someone to do that, if I could just shut down my jealous/obsessive part of me, I could have a good time talking to someone without shooting darts from my eyes everytime she mentions someone else. When's it going to end, I'm asking you, when? I don't want to go on being a jealous ********, but I can't help it. I want someone all for me, just for me, someone dedicated just to me.

Do I have to go buy a Tamagochi for someone to understand what I'm feeling? Someone answer me please, tell me you love me like that, tell me you care about me, tell me you'll be the one that will dedicate her whole life just for me.

Don't pity me. Lying is lying in every context.