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Report XXIX.

I just lay back down and tried to get some sleep. For some reason though, I didn’t want to. It was like this dream I had was just haunting me. I couldn’t get it out of my head and it felt as though death was upon me each time I almost went to sleep. After about 30 minutes, I actually went to sleep.
Dream: I’m running from something and turn back to see on what it is, but can’t make it out. I’m in a hallway with oval shaped walls and ceiling that are made of Nothingness. I keep pacing with an echo for each foot step. I’m sweating and feel the heat running down my face. The breaths I take are very deep and hard. I look back yet again, and see that he’s catching up on me. I turn back to see that a group of people are the standing.
I stop in front of the group and find that Xirks, Bixyll, Mikaela, Xikaelam, and Greg are all standing there. It then grows much quit. I turn back to find the man not there anymore, not to be seen at all. I then turn back yet again to the group to see them have disappeared. I only find Xemnas standing there with his hands glowing with Nothingness and his Ariel Blades summoned upon him. He was grinning with glee and was laughing as if he was insane.
I was just shocked to find him here, but I was panting with deep breaths looking for air. So, the only thing I could do was fight. I summoned my weapon and held it with a firm grip within both of my hands. I looked up over at him, “What do you want?”
He answered intelligently, “For you to be gone of course. You will soon have everything I’ve ever wanted and I gave it to you. There is nothing that you give me in return. Is that how it woks now?”
“No. You made this happened. You knew this was going to happen. And now I’m not going to just stand here and be mocked by someone like you.” I took a sigh, “All my life I’ve been suffering only because Greg has been suffering by what he cares about the most, his friendship. And you, you say you made me? I laugh upon you with that thought. I’m all of me and you not going to be apart of it. You don’t control me, my friends don’t control me; they help me instead. Whatever lies down upon this path will lead me to the end and I hope it’s a good one, but not only for me. For the others I care about as well! So, I say only this now; get...the HELL OUT OF MY WAY!!!”

Report XXX.

I lay upon the couch in pain within my dream in the real world. I’m fighting off The Superior in my mind who is keeping me trapped within this trance. I don’t even know it that I’m dreaming, I think it’s real, but my real body lays limp and numb on this mere couch.
Its morning and I’m still asleep while Xirks and Xikaelam are getting ready. They tried to wake me up at first and didn’t work, so they thought I just had a rough night and needed a little more sleep. Once they were done getting ready though, they returned by me who was moaning from the pain and suffering.
“Xeggr...?” Xirks said, “Time to wake up...”
“Is he alright?” Xikaelam asked.
“I’m sure he’s just having a bad dream, don’t worry about it. C’mon Xeggr, it’s time to get up.” Xirks began to shake me a little on the arm, but I still remained doing nothing, as if he was messing with a dead body.
After about a few minutes of trying to get me to awake, they knew I wasn’t normal. I wouldn’t wake up no matter what kind of attempt. They sat in the other recliners thinking on what was wrong with me.
“I hope he’s ok...” Xikaelam stated in a sad tone.
“Would you stop acting like that? He might never wake up with that kind of attitude!” Xirks yelled. “He might be sick.”
“What do you think he has then?”
“I don’t know; let’s go check on his computer.”
They moved me down to the basement couch and they moved themselves to my main base computer. Xirks was sitting within the main chair while Xikaelam was by me on the couch as well watching to see if I would wake up on my own.
“Alright, let’s check his main files of information.” Xirks said while he typed.
“What are you going to look up?” Xikaelam asked curiously.
“I don’t know. Uh...what are his problems?”
Xikaelam looked at his face to see his emotions. “Well, he’s suffering as if something is attacking him or chasing him.”
Xirks began to type on what she said, but in shorter statements. “Check around his upper body on the skin.”
She looked over at him and looked a little nervous. “You mean...I have to lift his shirt?”
“Yeeesss,” Xirks said slowly to make sure she understood. “See if there are any wounds or scars that might relate to this.”
Xikaelam folded the blanket halfway so only it showed my upper body. My hands were still under the covers. She began to slowly take off my shirt. She found very little scars on the chest and stomach. “There is nothing in the front. Should I check that back?”
“Yes, you never know what you might find.” He stated.
Xikaelam then flipped me over to find something extraordinary. Xikaelam gasped to find this. She got up and stepped back a little. She began to rub her back for some reason.
Xirks turned to see on what she found. There were many scars upon my back that I never knew or noticed about. It looked though as if I got whipped non stop by something that always haunted or followed me. Xirks got up and examined the scars. “These weren’t performed by any type of earth element,” Xriks stated yet again, “But by something that was burning. It looked as though he was being tortured by someone within his past that caused for this to happen.”
Xikaelam finally stepped forward and gently rubbed the wounds. “It was Xemnas. He struck him with his Ariel Blades and his Nothingness. He must have done this at the time of Xeggr’s training. I think that brought him to do a lot of Xemnas’ orders and act a lot like him as well. I think Xeggr might be fighting him for the last time, to get rid of him for good, to finally be free...”
“Got it,” Xirks interrupted on the computer, “It’s called ‘Psychological trauma’. It’s a case that deals with the mind that was caused by an emotional event. From what you said, it must the abuse that Xemnas gave him during his training. It also might link with what his true might have done or is doing.” Xirks looked back at Xikaelam, “Did anything happen to him last night?”
Xikaelam was still rubbing my back to where the wounds are. “Yeah, something happened between him and me.”
“Really? What was it?”
Xikaelam looked down and whispered, “We kissed...”
Xirks widened his eyes, “Hmm... That might be apart of the affect as well.”
She looked over at him worried, “What do you mean? You’re saying this is my fault?”
“Actually, yes. You may have triggered on what he’s doing now. But, this may be a good thing as well. With this reaction, he could be cured from he’s been suffering from a long time now. There’s also another possibility though...”
“Do I want to know?”
“...it says here that...he could die...” Xirks said sort of slowly, but sounding a little sad.
Xikaelam looked down upon him and tried to hide her tears. She flipped me back over to see my face. She then wrapped her arms around me for a hug. “I won’t loose you. You’re not going to leave me Xeggr!”
Dream: I was fighting off Xemnas as much as I could, but did no damage whatsoever. Each time I did an attack, he blocked it. Each time I blocked, he found a way in. I was now panting, leaning against my staff with wounds and scratches all over.
Xemnas was just hunching over with his Ariel Blades still within his grasps. He had not a single scratch upon him. He was just grinning there waiting for me to fall down and fade.
“You asked for this to happen and choose it.” He stated “You will surely fade away in no time.”
I looked up at him, “You mean I made that deal with you?”
“What deal?”
I then widened my eyes having it all wrong. I thought for a moment on what I should do. I couldn’t think of one thing to do at all onto finding a weakness within him. What makes him tick? Wait, whatever makes him tick, makes me tick. If I manipulated him in a way I could get out of this and finally strike him! I looked up over at him smirking and got up. I made my weapon disappear and turned around to just walk away.
Xemnas expression changed and now looked shocked. He appeared right in front of me holding his blades within an ‘X’ position up to my neck. “Is this a trick?” he asked with rage.
“What do you think?” I said as calm as ever.
He then moved his blades closer. “It’s your choice Xeggr. What do you choose?”
“Neither; ‘cuz it’s your choice too. You see, if I fail, you fail. You’re apart of me that is just trying to take over, but I provide the soul. The only thing you can take over is my mind and you’re in the way.” A new path appeared to my right. “I have another choice you know? I can just walk down this path and I’ll just fade away on my own. You can take it as well, but it will happen to you as well. The direction I was heading right will just erase of my memory and the one I was walking was my normal state. So Superior, what do you choose?”
He stood there astonished and lowered the blades during the middle of my explanation. He began to step back to the direction I was facing right now. I heard him gasp as if he got stabbed. There, through his stomach, was my two blades. The one who were holding them was the real me. The one who was doing all of the talking was just an illusion. Xemnas began to bleed in the spot on where I stabbed him and blood tripped out of his mouth. I yanked the swords out hard and he just faded away.
I looked down at my staff swords to find the blood turn into Nothingness and drip off of the blade. I then put my staff back together and made it disappear. I looked back to find nothing else in sight and continued to walk the direction I was heading from before.
As I walked, I found only Xikaelam. She looked very sad as if something hurt her. She was curled up in a ball against the wall with her head down to not show her face.
“Xikaelam?” I asked approaching her.
“Don’t die, don’t die, don’t die...” she told herself over and over again.
I awoke in the laboratory very confused now. I notice that Xikaelam was on top of me hugging the life out of me. I turned my head to see Xirks in the computer chair looking over at me. He looked stunned, but was silent. I then looked back over to Xikaelam. “Hey...” I said kind of weak, “Mind getting off of me?”
Her closed eyes opened with shock and pushed forward to see me alive. She smiled and started to cry. “No, I don’t mind...” she said trenched in tears and got up.
I sat up and looked over at Xirks, “What happened?”
“You’ve been sick and I believe you cured now.”
“Sick?” I told myself. I took a deep breath and exhaled it out. “For some reason, I think I’m a lot then I use to be.”

Report XXXI.

Xirks explained to me on what happened and the sickness I was in. He said that I was out, ever since they moved me to the basement, for about an hour. He asked on what was happening to me and my thoughts during my sleep, but I couldn’t remember a thing at all.
I took a shower and got a change of clothes. It was a little after noon now and we all decided to eat some lunch. We all ate some soup with some water and milk to drink. As a desert, we had some sea salt ice-cream.
After all that, we finally got ready for the transfer to the Milky Way Galaxy. We moved to a world where they needed the moonlight since Xikaelam’s element and Twilight Town only provided the time of dusk.
“Where are we going to go then?” Xikaelam asked while she was stretching.
“I’m not at all sure,” I answered, “Think of a world where it’s always dark and the Moon’s up no matter what kind of day it is...”
“How about Traverse Town then?” he replied, “It may be filled with people, but at least it’s always dark to where you can see the moon.”
“Great idea. Let’s head there.” I said with glee. I opened a portal that led to that world and had everyone enter.
We all arrived in a place that seemed pretty dark. People were walking around looking pretty normal and pretty cautious. We walked through the First District a little.
“Where are we going to set this up at?” Xirks asked.
“How about we use the third district?” I asked, “There are no people around, enough moonlight to cover her and enough room there to make the portal.”
“I’m in for that.” Xikaelam said a little proud of herself.
“Works for me then.” Xirks answered while he shrugged.
We all went over to the Third District. The whole place was empty and there was enough room to make the portal. We all set up our positions. I was in the center; Xirks was to my right while Xikaelam was to my left. Xirks volunteered to be to the right since that’s his favorite spot to be within a group.
“Assemble!” I yelled and we all got within different positions each. Xikaelam began to harness the Moon’s light while Xirks began to meditate. I had my eyes closed building up all of the rage and fear that’s always haunted me. My eyes began to blood shot while red hangings under my eyes formed with the blood shots.
I looked at both at them and yelled once again, “Ready...”
Xikaelam and I got in a battle ready position while Xirks still sat there meditating for the right second to make his move.
“NOW!!!” I called out as we begun the process.
Xikaelam shot a twilight/dark substance while I shot out my Nothingness connected with my darkness. Xirks opened his eyes, jumped up, and shot out his fire with a swirling darkness wrap around it. They all crashed together and began to take form.
A gigantic dark portal was formed to suit three members within. The center was a Twilight glow with a spinning darkness over it. The Nothingness and Fire were bind together wrapping around the edges and bottom of the portal and made clashing noises.
“We don’t have much time!” I yelled trying to beat the noise of the roaring wind and booming noise of the portal.
“You mean you two don’t!” Xirks said holding off the portal.
Xikaelam and I turned to him stunned to hear that. “Xirks,” I said, “You’re coming with us. You can’t hold this. It’s too much power!”
“I can hold it as long as you get in there! Now go! I told you I’m going to see my true when the right time comes and this isn’t it. I hope you and Xikaelam live you good lives with Greg and Mikaela.”
I nodded my head, “Alright then. If that’s how you want it, it’s alright with me.” I grabbed hold of Xikaelam’s hand and turned to her. “You ready?”
“Yeah, is Xirks coming?” she asked.
“No, but I’ll tell you later about it.” I said. I turned back once more to see Xirks once last time. “We’ll keep in touch right?”
He grinned over at me. “Of course. What kind of person doesn’t? Now go before I change my mind.”
I did a smooth smile back and looked the portal again. “See yeah then Xirks...”
Xikaelam and I hopped within the portal. Xirks broke loose of the portal and it disappeared with a huge flash. All that remained was Xirks in Traverse Town while Xikaelam and I were gone into the unknown.

Report XXXII.

A world began to come within sight. The moon hung high above in the sky with only little stars out. It was quiet and no people to be around. There houses all in a line, countless to be seen from a far distance as it looked. Street lights were at every few houses down with some houses with their windows with a dim glow. Others might have been asleep, while others might be alone or with someone they truly care about.
There was a flash of light, but no thunder or roaring the portals anymore. It was as quiet as you are within a church hall. We appeared on a fairly grassy yard by a tree at the edge of the street. A gray car was parked at the edge of the street by the tree. I was panting and very weak. I was sweating as if it was hottest day I’ve ever felt. I was pretty glad though since it was fairly cold and I could at least relax now.
“We made it...” I whispered with my tone very weak. I turned to find that Xikaelam had passed out. I felt her cheeks and her forehead for her temperature. They were fairly normal and she looked very weak. I tried to get up, but it felt too heavy to move. After about 5 minutes, I got the strength to get up and have Xikaelam in my arms.
I heard voices coming from my right coming in from a gate. At that moment, I ran as fast as I could to the other side of the house. I hid on the wall by the corner. I tilted my head forward to find what was truly amazing. It was Greg and Mikaela together by walking towards that tree! I couldn’t believe that we got to the exact area on where they are. From what I thought, that’s pretty rare.
I stood there and examined them as they talked. I could barely hear them, but enough to get on what they were saying. It sounded as if Mikaela was telling Greg on how she feels if she was alone and more relating to that. Greg was leaning against the car listening on what she had to say and answered her as well.
Then a little boy looking of age 6 or 7 ran outside. From Greg’s expression, he wasn’t pleased. The boy wanted to play with them. They began to argue and Greg began to walk towards on where I was. I had no idea on where to run to next. So, with all of my might, I jumped and landed on top of the roof of the house. I carefully walked a little ways away from the edge. I laid Xikaelam down on the roof while I knelt down and crawled up to the edge to see on what was going on.
Greg walked over with Mikaela behind him. They were trying to determine if Greg could run up the side of the wall. I wanted to examine this and see if he could use his wisdom to do the right choice. He got in a stance and was about to run, but then he stopped and stood normal. He jogged over to the wall and felt it. He stated that it was too slick and that he would just fall back and break his head. After that, they just walked away.
I then took a deep breath and lay back upon the roof. I turned my head to see Xikaelam still out. I was just wondering about her expression when she finds out that we’re at her true’s house. I bet she’ll be shocked and just want to run to her immediately. It seems like I have to wait and see until morning.
We spent the night on top of the roof. I got up at around 5:30 in the morning. I had to go over and wake Xikaelam up since we might get caught up here. I went over by her and began to shake her a bit.
“Xikaelam,” I said, “Wake up.”
She began to moan a little bit for she was tired. She slowly opened her eyes. She smiled over at me for some odd reason. “Hey Xeggr.” She answered in a tired tone, “What are you doing in my bedroom?”
I made a glare at her making it look like she was a complete idiot. I thought that she was half asleep or she got drunk for some reason. “No you idiot. We’re on Earth and on top of Mikaela’s roof.”
She instantly looked like she was awake now. She shot up and looked excited. “Really?!? Where have I been? Why didn’t you tell me earlier?”
“Slow down. You got tired and you were out cold.” I sat up now. “Anyways, Greg and Mikaela were out here last night and we almost got caught by being seen.”
“Why didn’t you talk to them?” she asked sounding desperate.
“Cuz we can’t be seen yet. Anyways, you weren’t awake.”
“...Good point.” She crossed her legs and her arms and looked down with thought. “Then what do we do?”
“It’s simple. We take turns on examining them and found out on how they are and what they do. We even find out about ourselves.”
“Alright! Let’s get started then!”

Report XXXIII.

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