It seems like I'm gonna see him no more. It has been two weeks since this semester started but I still got no news about him. I'm failing. I'm hitting the rocks. Maybe this is the time to stop dreaming. He could never be my prince even if I'm to dedicate this lifetime to him.. much as I could ever do and hope for. He could never be a part of my life. Or atleast, not the way I wanted him to be. And I could never be part of his life. I don't think he would let me. Sometimes it hurts to be logical. And those gazes must mean nothing to him. I should let these things off my mind, before I continue to fall deeper in the abyss and be in nostalgia within another nostalgia.
I'm missing him still. For now, my happiness is being able to talk about him, and reminscing those moments and gazes. I'm still confused about that smile. And it seems that I'm gonna let myself fall deeper and be hurt more.. I can't bear not to think of him. I can't keep myself from wondering if he misses me too. I hope to see him again soon, if God would allow me to. I'm wishing for a miracle. And as the rain pours hard tonight, so are the tears running down my cheeks. I must admit I'm falling deeper.
aitenshi16 · Tue Dec 12, 2006 @ 12:52pm · 1 Comments |