Well many new things have occured since two months ago. Move went wonderfully, my family and friends have pulled together to help me out more then I would have dreamed possible. I'm much happier now in my own little apartment, my own things, my own time, my own life. No one says a thing about anything I do. No one to worry about... no one to cuddle either.. but I won't get into that. i never was very affectionate until I have no one, now i crave it. Go fig.
Problems: Going broke, thinking about bankrupcy. Hopefuly I can and that will solve my issues. No money yet for my divorce but i'm working on it since i'm sure we shall never get back together. My cat passed away the other week, that was terrible for me, and i'm sure most of you would not understand. Replaced her with a wonderful hymmie.
Talking to Darc_Master_Alchemist aka Eli.. been talking to him quite a bit on the phone. He's intelligent, creative, crazy, and seems to get me at times. Not always mind you, but on occasion he does surprise me with his perceptiveness. Not only that but he's the most persistant guy i've ever met. His personality is slightly terrifing as I don't believe that I could manipulate him for any length of time. Yes I know thats awful, but its how i live my life. Safer.. He has a perfect balance of rational and spontenaety. Always was interested in quiet guys before.. people who didn't argue with me, and who, when a confrontation erupted, I would say nothing and just leave. I like him because I don't think he'd let me.
Only thing is I think if we dated it would be energetic and crazy and wonderful, but when it crashed it would go hard. Is the end result worth the gain? Good question. One thing I do know now, I am no longer content with boring, quiet men. And I would never find anyone else like Eli ever again.
 Azella · Fri Feb 04, 2005 @ 04:28am · 1 Comments |
