AHHHHH! thats right lets start this entry with a huge scream... I wish I could do it in RL but im in a hotel "relaxing" but who can relax when your mind is troubleing you...this 4 months have been the worst in my whole life but the last bad thing that happened to me surely broke my heart atleast 7 times and well thats why I dont think I can get out of this one easily. I have a tough desicion to make but I cant make it right now since my emotions are all confused ... my heart and my mind are battling to decide what to do but ...I just cant let out somethings...how can something like this happen to me? after such a wonderful thing we had...I mean come on its not fair for me...I have never done anything bad...I have to ask more questions ...more details...so maybe my heart can break even more and make the final decision... this isnt the first time that this has happened to me...but it sure is the one that hurts the most....heh maybe its since I dedicated my life to that...now that im about to lose it...my heart cant take that pressure no more...who knows...I dont even know what im writing....im just tooo broken and need to write somewhere wher I can express myself fast....Later I will write more...
· Sat Sep 02, 2006 @ 07:25pm · 0 Comments