Well it is now offical, my oldest brother (32) is gay. I dont give a s**t if he is gay or not since I will love my brother no matter what but as much as I accept him just the way he is I am worried about two other people in my family.
My second oldest brother (Troy) has been close to Kyle ever since they were born. They played together all the time, they hung around each other at school, they borrowed each others stuff and basically did pretty much everything you could think of together. Now Troy has been told and though he says he doesnt care I cant help but wonder if he does actually care. Not care as in hating Kyle for being gay but care as in the fact that for 5 or 6 years Kyle never told him. Troy is a sweet kid and of course he will understand but when it comes to Kyle he is also a tad bit sensitive thats all.
Troy is going to get past this I know he will but as for the second person in the family, my father, I dont think he is going to take it so nicely. He is always saying stuff like "well as long as those fags dont come around me im fine" or "god made man to have male and female relationships not same sex ones" and other stuff like that. Now Kyle doesnt give a s**t if our father doesnt accept him for who he is but I know that he would be a tiny bit hurt since news like this would wish both parents would accept you since they brought you into this world. I love my brother but i cant help but feel bad for him a bit when i would love to have both our parents accept him but I know that as soon as my father is told s**t is going to hit the fan 10 fold.
How can I stop this? I know for a fact that I cant since my father, when he gets into one of his moods, he is like a charging bull and nothing and no one can stop him without getting hurt in some form. I want him to accept Kyle for who he is, like i said, but i cant make him which just makes me wonder if my father is going to alienate himself from my brother, his oldest son.
My father and him have gotten on great all their lives and you could say they are close but this, i fear, is going to tear them apart and i just dont want that to happen. I have known Kyle was gay for basically 6 or 7 years but just never offically known it and now that myself and the rest of the family (except Dad) knows offically its just dad. I know i dont want to be in the same country when my father is told this news but i know that when i get home this is going to change everything between my father and his son and i dont know if i could cope with that...
Maybe i am glad that my brother comes down to see us every once in a blue moon (he lives in another xity from the rest of the family) but after this i think its going to be a vist every 2 years or something instead of two to three times a year....
Demonic Curse · Mon Dec 27, 2004 @ 07:26am · 2 Comments |